Lost: Inspiration. Answers to name of "Muse." Black with sparkles. Reward.

[dr_anitacoffee]

I have the first third of the final chapter of Sonata written. In fact, I've had it written for months. I just can't write any more of it - I keep trying, getting two sentences in, and whacking "backspace" angrily until I'm back at square one with that smug, blinking cursor

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[stenveny]

I've loved the parts of "Sonata" that you've posted, but I definitely know what you mean. I cannot write (and can only rarely read) anything season-7-ish. The post-"Moving On" romances either depress me or make me angry even when they are VERY well written (and many of them aren't well written.) When I'm depressed or stymied I pull out old season 2-4 episodes and watch those. It doesn't help the writing flow but it's a distraction.

Don't force the thing, and remember you don't OWE anyone fan fiction. It's supposed to be fun and powerful, and when it's not, you're under no obligation to anyone to do it.

I wish my muse had sparkles.

[dr_anitacoffee]

If you can catch your muse and hold it down long enough, it's possible to tape sparkles to it. Don't tell anyone.

Thank you for the encouragement, and yes, damn near everything written post-Moving On as well as pre-Moving On blows harder than the Red Sox in September, and that's a scenario in which all members of the Sox are replaced by drunk ferrets. I don't think it helps my muse much as it's cowering in terror from the ongoing torture of the English language and laws of physics. I've really given up reading anything at all in the fandom at this point because I just can't will myself to care. At this point someone would have to center the story around a box of kittens that House is struggling to diagnose for me to care. Really cute kittens, with big eyes and ears and names that are far too serious for a small animal, like Seth and Lord Kensington III.

[stenveny]

Maybe I'll take that kitten idea. I'll credit you with the prompt.

[flippet]

Aw. That kind of sucks, hon. (Especially since I love Sonata so much.)

I guess that I don't have too many problems just taking a giant machete to most of s7, certainly the end, and pretending they don't exist. I haven't watched any of s8, so it hasn't altered *my* view of the character. I just maintain that the writers don't know what they're talking about, they're wrong, House wouldn't and didn't do any of that, and *my* character lives on in my head. (And honestly - there are discrepancies and contradictions all along, depending on who's writing. We accept some, and leave others behind all the time, depending on our worldview. This is pretty huge, but it's just one more thing to take or leave. Even canon isn't canon...not really. If you know what I mean.)

(Also, I think of it this way - even though I'm a huge West Wing fan - I can perfectly easily recall entire episodes of season 1, while completely forgetting that Mandy ever existed. It's like my brain totally wipes her from the scenes. I'm often quite surprised to re-

[dr_anitacoffee]

It's weird - I went through some serious shit in my ER fandom, to the point where I'd have minor panic attacks every Thursday and on one occasion had to knock myself out with heavy sedatives to sleep. I mean, it was rough. But for all his issue-centricity and love of dropping helicopters on things, John Wells can write the shit out of a story and keep it true to a character. That's what went wrong with House, for me - there were just too many of those inconsistencies to the point where I'm downright disgusted. There's a better chance of me writing a sympathetic fic about Newt Gingrich taking CJ as his fourth wife and leaving her for a widowed Abby Bartlet than there is of me being able to reconcile my feelings about House, and I'm 99% sure the Republican primaries are the source of my recent panic attacks and crying jag at dinner upon seeing the results of the South Carolina primaries

[flippet]

Or I'll get drunk and write a lot of gravity-defying, baby-making S&M angst for shits and giggles.

That works for me. ;-)

But seriously, that kind of thing may actually help. Go ahead and write something silly and over-the-top, something totally OUT of character...to sort of prove that you can do it, and then when you come back to your Sonata characters, they won't feel nearly so ooc

[london_fan]

I'm incredibly sorry (mostly for selfish reasons), though also understanding to hear that you won't finish Sonata. It was one of the brilliant WIPS I really wanted to see finished, but I feel your pain about what has become of this once awesome show and couple. Still sad, though.