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[dr_brat]

stages and processes and the weird twists and turns that life takes. I've been having trouble being alone in the house lately, which is such a weird turn of events. When DWH first died, it was not so much hard for me to be here alone as it was for me to come home to nobody. I really liked it when J. was here her two nights a week, even though

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[lorres]

I hope it'll be a good weekend.

"It's almost like I'm going through withdrawal from a bad drug."

errmmmm....testosterone? Not inherently bad. I think it's really hard to get over being physically intimate with someone.

This sounds like the normal relationship breakup grieving that must be gotten through, so I hope your low key at home weekend is sweet and a good consolation.

[firecat]

It seems to me George generated a lot of drama with his contrary behavior, unsolicited advice, and complaining. I think the "withdrawl from a bad drug" analogy is excellent, because your body was probably making a lot of stress hormones. And once there's quiet and calm, it takes a while for the body to realize "Oh, I don't have to make so many of these now."

[dr_brat]

That's an excellent point and I know that in the past I have been addicted to the adrenaline generated by stress and drama. I don't really feel comfortable in the absence of those things although I have been trying. As much as I objected to the drama George stirred up, it *felt* right because I was raised by someone like that. Such strange creatures we are.