That thing that everyone talks about, but no one really knows--it starts with an L.

[dr_composed]

I'm not going to lie and say that I don't think any thoughts that may be considered "untoward." At times, my thoughts can stray pretty far from G-rated, not that I would go around broadcasting that fact. And I only think that way about fictional characters half the time. In the other half--a fact which elicits a certain amount of guilt--the people

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[pywen]

What you're craving is indeed affection. Touching someone else without meaning anything sexual behind the gesture is hard to accomplish these days, especially with a man. I have this craving too and it's hard to maintain with the people around me. I usually go play with children when that happens - they'll touch and hug and tackle you all you want and not care because they're in their hearts and not in their heads judging like most adults do. If you really want male company, I suggest you go see a gay guy, because then you won't have to worry about him interpreting the signals you send the wrong way like most het guys do. A homosexual guy (the Uke-guy doing the girl position usually) is also in his heart most of the time, so he'll understand you perfectly if you empty your heart to him about relationship and life matters. Believe me, you'll feel way much close to a gay guy than to a girl or a het guy, this I say from personal experience

[dr_composed]

Wow... You've given me quite a lot to think about. Can I just tell you how much I truly appreciate the thought you put into your replies? It's encouraging to know there's someone out there who's reading this and actually taking my thoughts into consideration. So thank you. =D

[pywen]

You wrote your entries with the silent hope that people would read it and learn something from it :) Since we think very much like each other, I can only guess that these entries are the first ones to a long series of views on what you feel and what you're trying to convey in words about yourself to other people in a language and meaning they'll understand. Right now they consider your thoughts and actions 'weird', but they're only natural in reality. It's hard to be understood when what we see so simply is hard to be understood by people that think differently than us, after all.