Sakura Kiss
Oh wow...
As odd as it seems when I look back on it, today might have been one of the happiest days of my life. I think this is the way summer is supposed to be...work, reflection and endless flirtation. *^_^* I woke up today with no expectations and left the movie theater about 20 minutes ago with the most extreme feeling of....joy. More than anything though I was thankful. That sounds...not like I really want it to sound. I'm having trouble putting into words what I mean....oh well.
To shorten a story that I could go on and on about for ages, Mark worked with me today. He wasn't at the desk, he was doing backstock but still managed to spend much of his time at the desk. (Does that mean something? Or is it just my wishful thinking?) After much hijinx and a few prank calls (which TOTALLY fooled me...I'm so lame and gullible...::weeps::) He brought me a salad in apology...random I know, but true...and totally characteristic of him. Then he asked me to see a movie with him. He wanted to see Lady in the Water and asked me...simple as that. You don't need to guess at what I said.
So we met at the movie theater and I about died at just being able to be seen in public with him. Nothing really interested happened....but that was what made it special. I know how lame this is sounding but the fact that I got to sit next to him while he was enjoying a movie and trying his damndest to make me eat some of the HUGE thing of popcorn he had bought....was just fun. It was awesome. He kept laughing when I jumped at the scary parts in the movie and I could've died there. I love to see him laugh...I'd undertake any scary movie if he thinks seeing me jump is that amusing. Wow. I've really fallen for this guy I think...and the whole endeavor is so hopeless I could cry...were I not already so blissfully happy as I've already stated...haha.
I keep telling myself that he HAS a girlfriend and that it's NOT cool to even think of going after someone who's attatched.....but I don't know anything about her. I have no confirmation of her existence...which is helping me in creating my own little fantasy world where we could ever get together....helping quite a lot, actually. ^_^ Not that I feel I have a real chance even if he WERE single. UGH! This frustration can't be good for me, but I don't even care that I'm frustrated. I'm so amazingly conflicted right now...it's...well...amazing. I just said that. LOL!
It also doesn't help that Al got her b/f by taking him away from his g/f at the time....what is this...all signs pointing to going all out after him? Too bad I'm a total coward....honestly. Alison's advice to just "see where it goes" doesn't fall on deaf ears. I'm totally going to go for it! By waiting. I'm crazy. Thanks for putting up with this babble.
Kiss, kiss, fall in love!
I suddenly notice that I'm always around you...
But is that really hate? Love?
Or just paranoia?
When I can see my own feelings clearly,
Lady or host, It doesn't matter!
The reason for which people fall in love,
Is different for everyone but-
Maybe you're my love!
I want to meet you now,
And give you, a sweet person
A Sakura kiss,
If your heart moves from it...
Let's have a romantic love!
More important than the future is the present!
A delightful spring love is the blossoming maiden's aesthetic!
Maybe You're my love!
P.S. Lady in the Water was weird, but I loved it! I would reccommend it to anyone with a sense of fantasy and wonder left in their hearts! It really was good! And also...on a more shallow note....M. Night Shyamalan is HOTT.
As odd as it seems when I look back on it, today might have been one of the happiest days of my life. I think this is the way summer is supposed to be...work, reflection and endless flirtation. *^_^* I woke up today with no expectations and left the movie theater about 20 minutes ago with the most extreme feeling of....joy. More than anything though I was thankful. That sounds...not like I really want it to sound. I'm having trouble putting into words what I mean....oh well.
To shorten a story that I could go on and on about for ages, Mark worked with me today. He wasn't at the desk, he was doing backstock but still managed to spend much of his time at the desk. (Does that mean something? Or is it just my wishful thinking?) After much hijinx and a few prank calls (which TOTALLY fooled me...I'm so lame and gullible...::weeps::) He brought me a salad in apology...random I know, but true...and totally characteristic of him. Then he asked me to see a movie with him. He wanted to see Lady in the Water and asked me...simple as that. You don't need to guess at what I said.
So we met at the movie theater and I about died at just being able to be seen in public with him. Nothing really interested happened....but that was what made it special. I know how lame this is sounding but the fact that I got to sit next to him while he was enjoying a movie and trying his damndest to make me eat some of the HUGE thing of popcorn he had bought....was just fun. It was awesome. He kept laughing when I jumped at the scary parts in the movie and I could've died there. I love to see him laugh...I'd undertake any scary movie if he thinks seeing me jump is that amusing. Wow. I've really fallen for this guy I think...and the whole endeavor is so hopeless I could cry...were I not already so blissfully happy as I've already stated...haha.
I keep telling myself that he HAS a girlfriend and that it's NOT cool to even think of going after someone who's attatched.....but I don't know anything about her. I have no confirmation of her existence...which is helping me in creating my own little fantasy world where we could ever get together....helping quite a lot, actually. ^_^ Not that I feel I have a real chance even if he WERE single. UGH! This frustration can't be good for me, but I don't even care that I'm frustrated. I'm so amazingly conflicted right now...it's...well...amazing. I just said that. LOL!
It also doesn't help that Al got her b/f by taking him away from his g/f at the time....what is this...all signs pointing to going all out after him? Too bad I'm a total coward....honestly. Alison's advice to just "see where it goes" doesn't fall on deaf ears. I'm totally going to go for it! By waiting. I'm crazy. Thanks for putting up with this babble.
Kiss, kiss, fall in love!
I suddenly notice that I'm always around you...
But is that really hate? Love?
Or just paranoia?
When I can see my own feelings clearly,
Lady or host, It doesn't matter!
The reason for which people fall in love,
Is different for everyone but-
Maybe you're my love!
I want to meet you now,
And give you, a sweet person
A Sakura kiss,
If your heart moves from it...
Let's have a romantic love!
More important than the future is the present!
A delightful spring love is the blossoming maiden's aesthetic!
Maybe You're my love!
P.S. Lady in the Water was weird, but I loved it! I would reccommend it to anyone with a sense of fantasy and wonder left in their hearts! It really was good! And also...on a more shallow note....M. Night Shyamalan is HOTT.