heyyyy... ive been private posting a lot lately, but ive neglected the general public, so here i go. first off, kelly clarkson knows what shes talking about. okkkk, so back at skidmore things are pretty good. i like some of my friends a bunch, but some of them piss me off, which im totally realizing is reality. someones always gonna piss me off, so ( Read more... )

This break I keep finding myself stretching myself thin and trying to please everyone. I keep waiting for that time where everything's settled, but I'm just starting to realize how unrealistic that is. It brings me endless anxiety that my friendships at school aren't yet the way they are at home. I'm just starting to notice why my mom and me have ( Read more... )

time for an LJ update ( Read more... )

I WANT A REDUCTION! I HATE BIG BOOBS... BOO BRA SHOPPING
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FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK my professor hates me already and im fucked for my meeting with her tomorrow... were supposed to go over a research paper which i havent written yet, but honestly, maybe ill focus on everything but because i also have a book to read, a proposal to write, three readings, and a questionarre before 10AM... hmm, fuck me, times ( Read more... )

college is a lot of work and im tired. my room is too hot. i almost punched my friend erin's boyfriend- he was being really mean to me... i hope she wakes up and breaks up with him cause hes an asshole. dinner was good, i gotta get working.. maybe i need caffine? i dunno, im going to the gym soon. i should get stuff done before then. hmm, fucking ( Read more... )

so, last night the fire alarm went off at 6 in the morning- it sucked and my hair was messy and i had to throw a sweatshirt on cause i was just wearing my sports bra. so stressed but ill leave that out. hot boy, big crush, but i dont think he knows im alive. its cool tho, im good just staring. dont ask. what else... hmm, im reading The End of ( Read more... )

as usual a random entry and this time i wont make a false promise that now all of a sudden im gonna regularly update. anyway, just thought id give the 411 on college.. its pretty damn awesome! i'm thinking now i wanna major in education and minor in environmental science, but we'll see.. haha, it amuses me how a month ago i wouldve said psych and ( Read more... )

im feeling the changes. its weird how every step of the way ive been perfectly ready for exactly that step but not yet the one after that till it arrives. time and me are floating together- were on the same page. i guess thats how life works if you keep up with it and go with the flow/act age appropriately. my outward perspective is evolving, but ( Read more... )

just returned from heiss's house where we gathered and watched BIG. hadnt seen it in a while; it kind of reminded me that i act a bit like my 5 year old campers. but w/e, as katherine says cool people dont loose all of their childlikeness, well those were in my words, but u know. anyway it was really nice just to fall asleep on the couch with ( Read more... )