I was talking to a friend of mine who will remain nameless about some stuff, Mainly dealing with a girl i used to like that he's gotten involved with. I was explainin got him that I didn't think of her like that and this just flowed out of me ( Read more... )

Ok, time for an update. Yesterday (being thursday) i went to Lunatic Luau 9, what an amazing show it was. Ra was great, the mosh pit for that was great. Shadows fall....dear christ, the lead singer of that band had i swear to the Gods, Calf length Dredlocks. I want dreds like that. but i had to leave early, here's whyaroung 5:50 i was in the ( Read more... )

Now I know I've found my Fallen Angel, She's upset, and i can't fix it. It's not even my fault this time. I wish i could just take all her pain away, everything that bothers her that bad, even if it at the expense of my own mental state. I just want to see her happy. I know whats wrong too. It's something that i can't do anything about. I wish I ( Read more... )

Ok, real update time. Jen got online and i managed to talk to her for around 15 minutes before stephen stole the keyboard then compy for the next hour and a half. Weather we know it or not, even thouhg it is unintentional, the two of us are in a pissing match about who misses her more. It's horrible. I'm debating writing 4 thank you letters ( Read more... )

I have no idea how i got so attached to her in the short time we had together, This was the last thing i expected when she showed up on the 16th. She means so much to me, and i had to watch her get in the car to go back to winchester this morning. btu at least i didnt have to watch her drive off, i couldn't handle it. I don't know how she handled ( Read more... )

Why did I get so attached to you? Why did I fall so hard? Why do you have to live so far away? At least I'll see you in august. it's just a month and a half. Why me? Why now ( Read more... )

dude, this last week has been amazing. since monday so much has changed. from me to jenn to brittany to stephen to shore even, so much has happened and i don't wantto post about all of it. i'll post about the good parts, Jenn and i are now dating since yesterday., which is amazing even to us All because both of us have self image problems its so ( Read more... )

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Why now, out of all the times in my life. does living to see tomorrow look like the hardest thing to do? I know i'll be over it if i just go upstairs and go to sleep. but it's hard, i can no longer motivate myself to pick up and se tomorrow. I dont know why. It's disturbing and it seems stupid, but i believe it.Empathy sucks when all you can feel ( Read more... )

Ok, update time. Saturday jamie and I went to prom, twas fun, i should have danced with someone that i didnt dance with. i regret that, but life is crap, ya know? I've given up on one of my goals/dreams of attaining. of late, and you all dont need to know what that is. I've given up on pursuing any form of dating, for the majority of the girls that ( Read more... )