Perception: Generally speaking, how do you think people perceive you?
There are six ways which people perceive me.
A woman
The idea of women has changed so much over the decades. I was raised in an era where women were still struggling to find any measure of semblance in their lives in terms of equality, Germaine Greer and her ‘Female Eunich’ or nay. I guess that era will never fully end, but at least we live in an era where females are recognised for their worth.
I’ve never let being a woman be a thing to hinder my choices or my decisions. You have to make the most of what you are and with what you have.
I’m perceived as a strong and individualistic woman. This much I know. As for everything else? Well, I leave that up to people to decide for themselves.
Dean of Medicine
People see me as in charge, in control, important, efficient and straight-down-the-line. I have to be to successfully hold this job down, and run my hospital as smoothly as I can effectively do so.
Having this job, however, comes with drawbacks that I can’t control: the drawbacks of protocol. As an administrator to a hospital I am bound by law to run my hospital according to protocol but, you know, there are times when I am faced with a crisis, where I am torn between human life and protocol. Those two things work in direct opposition of each other at the most trying of times and I loathe being caught in the middle of both. Of course I want to save lives. But I have to think of the best for this hospital, too, and I hate it when my dilemmas are paraded in front of me like I am vindictively choosing hospital administration over human life.
So, that’s another way people can perceive me in this job -- ruthless, selfish, bound by protocol and legalism. I’m only doing my job, you know? I have to do it in the way that is best for the hospital, the staff and the patients. People don’t realise how much pressure is placed on my shoulders in the job I do. I also believe that my value as a Dean of Medicine is greatly underappreciated by many.
Being the Dean of Medicine is a hard job to maintain, even harder to keep people happy. However people perceive me in this job, I’d like once in a while to be appreciated for the hard work and stress I go through to keep my hospital running.
A doctor
My first passion -- I wanted to be a doctor ever since I was twelve.
As a doctor, people look up to me, rely on me and depend on me to help them with whatever their ailments are. So, I suppose I’m seen as reliable, dependable, trustworthy… though that could be highly debated when talking about doctors in general. Many doctors screw up including me, which is where I will say that Dr. House has been my saving grace in that department, though he certainly likes to remind me when it suits him that I’m not as competent at being a doctor as he is. Which really rubs me the wrong way, especially considering I know the bastard is right. I make it my aim not to let people down.
Sometimes I succeed.
Sometimes I fail.
I’m a doctor, but I’m also only human.
A daughter
I don’t think many people realise how much expectation is placed on people by their parents. My father was always very supportive of me, my mother’s always been on the neurotic side, but they both love me (or loved, in dad’s case, seeing he’s not around anymore). I’m loved, that’s how I’m perceived by my parents. Loved, cherished, special, important, regardless of my faults and flaws. It’s called unconditional love, something kids are so quick to dismiss and take for granted.
I’m the best I can be, in my mother’s eyes, and was the best I could be in my father’s. And that’s all that matters.
A sister
There’s really only one thing I can say about this: my sisters are my best friends. And I’m theirs.
They also piss me off better than anyone else can even more so than House sometimes. I know I piss them off to no end, too, sometimes.
We wouldn’t be sisters if we didn’t piss each other off once in a while.
An aunt
Being an aunt to my nieces and nephews is as close to being a mother as I fear I may ever get. For this reason, I shower my nieces and nephews with gifts, hugs and kisses, because I need to cherish every moment I spend with them. They live all the way over in Boston, so I don’t get to see them very much, which pains me.
To my nieces and nephews, I’m seen as the ‘fun Mom’ -- the one who spoils them rotten, takes them out to the cinema and lets them eat way too much junk food, buys them more Barbies and Tonka trucks than they really need, sits with them and watches ‘Finding Nemo’ for the millionth time, wrestles and tickles them until they feel sick. I’m a big kid when I’m with my nieces and nephews, and I know they appreciate that.
I appreciate it, too. It makes me ache even more than I already do to have children. I wish I had my own children to share that with.
And maybe one day I’ll be able to answer this question under the following added two titles:
Wife
Mother
Time is fast running out. I fear I've probably missed my chance. Until then, who knows.
Muse: Dr. Lisa Cuddy
Fandom: House, M.D.
Words: 944
[mood|
complacent]
A woman
The idea of women has changed so much over the decades. I was raised in an era where women were still struggling to find any measure of semblance in their lives in terms of equality, Germaine Greer and her ‘Female Eunich’ or nay. I guess that era will never fully end, but at least we live in an era where females are recognised for their worth.
I’ve never let being a woman be a thing to hinder my choices or my decisions. You have to make the most of what you are and with what you have.
I’m perceived as a strong and individualistic woman. This much I know. As for everything else? Well, I leave that up to people to decide for themselves.
Dean of Medicine
People see me as in charge, in control, important, efficient and straight-down-the-line. I have to be to successfully hold this job down, and run my hospital as smoothly as I can effectively do so.
Having this job, however, comes with drawbacks that I can’t control: the drawbacks of protocol. As an administrator to a hospital I am bound by law to run my hospital according to protocol but, you know, there are times when I am faced with a crisis, where I am torn between human life and protocol. Those two things work in direct opposition of each other at the most trying of times and I loathe being caught in the middle of both. Of course I want to save lives. But I have to think of the best for this hospital, too, and I hate it when my dilemmas are paraded in front of me like I am vindictively choosing hospital administration over human life.
So, that’s another way people can perceive me in this job -- ruthless, selfish, bound by protocol and legalism. I’m only doing my job, you know? I have to do it in the way that is best for the hospital, the staff and the patients. People don’t realise how much pressure is placed on my shoulders in the job I do. I also believe that my value as a Dean of Medicine is greatly underappreciated by many.
Being the Dean of Medicine is a hard job to maintain, even harder to keep people happy. However people perceive me in this job, I’d like once in a while to be appreciated for the hard work and stress I go through to keep my hospital running.
A doctor
My first passion -- I wanted to be a doctor ever since I was twelve.
As a doctor, people look up to me, rely on me and depend on me to help them with whatever their ailments are. So, I suppose I’m seen as reliable, dependable, trustworthy… though that could be highly debated when talking about doctors in general. Many doctors screw up including me, which is where I will say that Dr. House has been my saving grace in that department, though he certainly likes to remind me when it suits him that I’m not as competent at being a doctor as he is. Which really rubs me the wrong way, especially considering I know the bastard is right. I make it my aim not to let people down.
Sometimes I succeed.
Sometimes I fail.
I’m a doctor, but I’m also only human.
A daughter
I don’t think many people realise how much expectation is placed on people by their parents. My father was always very supportive of me, my mother’s always been on the neurotic side, but they both love me (or loved, in dad’s case, seeing he’s not around anymore). I’m loved, that’s how I’m perceived by my parents. Loved, cherished, special, important, regardless of my faults and flaws. It’s called unconditional love, something kids are so quick to dismiss and take for granted.
I’m the best I can be, in my mother’s eyes, and was the best I could be in my father’s. And that’s all that matters.
A sister
There’s really only one thing I can say about this: my sisters are my best friends. And I’m theirs.
They also piss me off better than anyone else can even more so than House sometimes. I know I piss them off to no end, too, sometimes.
We wouldn’t be sisters if we didn’t piss each other off once in a while.
An aunt
Being an aunt to my nieces and nephews is as close to being a mother as I fear I may ever get. For this reason, I shower my nieces and nephews with gifts, hugs and kisses, because I need to cherish every moment I spend with them. They live all the way over in Boston, so I don’t get to see them very much, which pains me.
To my nieces and nephews, I’m seen as the ‘fun Mom’ -- the one who spoils them rotten, takes them out to the cinema and lets them eat way too much junk food, buys them more Barbies and Tonka trucks than they really need, sits with them and watches ‘Finding Nemo’ for the millionth time, wrestles and tickles them until they feel sick. I’m a big kid when I’m with my nieces and nephews, and I know they appreciate that.
I appreciate it, too. It makes me ache even more than I already do to have children. I wish I had my own children to share that with.
And maybe one day I’ll be able to answer this question under the following added two titles:
Wife
Mother
Time is fast running out. I fear I've probably missed my chance. Until then, who knows.
Muse: Dr. Lisa Cuddy
Fandom: House, M.D.
Words: 944
[mood|
complacent]