1542 Hours.
(Day 26)
Eventful so far.
Dr. Kate Heightmeyer came to see me, telling me that one of her patients -- doctor/patient confidentiality precluded her from stating who -- had been upset by what I told him or her last night. Since Dr. Zelenka is the only one that I've had regular contact with, I figured it out fairly quickly.
Dr. Zelenka
1. Hides his feelings. Coping mechanism?
2. Heightmeyer concerned that her work with Dr. Zelenka would come undone. Fragile?
3. Has "trust issues".
4. Genuinely wanted to --
Once upon a time, I wanted friends. I wanted to have what Sean and Linda had, but when I tried to talk to people, it was obvious I was doing something wrong. I was talking too much, or not enough. I was doing something that made them uneasy. After getting rejected by someone else who also got slammed into lockers in high school, I figured it was just easier to go it alone. Work with people, but not try to get any closer. It was safer for everyone involved.
The fact that Dr. Zelenka wanted to make friends with me, either out of some fascination with the Abnormal, or out of pity, or whatever reason he has -- if he can hide his feelings, he's certainly capable of lying -- I'm uneasy about his interest. I know that there are people in the world MWG who use people and don't care about the consequences. As much as I might have wished for friendship when I was younger, I know that can be a vulnerability someone can exploit.
So, despite what Dr. Heightmeyer might think, I don't need friends. I've lived without them for 34 years. I'm fairly sure I can continue living without them.
Dr. Zelenka looked... unhappy. Not upset, but not happy, either.
I should be more skeptical, since Dr. Heightmeyer said that he can hide his feelings. He could fake that as well.
I'll have my time back that won't be spent listening to him.
He said that he wasn't sure what he'd do tonight, that he would think of something.
And yet...
Eventful so far.
Dr. Kate Heightmeyer came to see me, telling me that one of her patients -- doctor/patient confidentiality precluded her from stating who -- had been upset by what I told him or her last night. Since Dr. Zelenka is the only one that I've had regular contact with, I figured it out fairly quickly.
Dr. Zelenka
1. Hides his feelings. Coping mechanism?
2. Heightmeyer concerned that her work with Dr. Zelenka would come undone. Fragile?
3. Has "trust issues".
4. Genuinely wanted to --
Once upon a time, I wanted friends. I wanted to have what Sean and Linda had, but when I tried to talk to people, it was obvious I was doing something wrong. I was talking too much, or not enough. I was doing something that made them uneasy. After getting rejected by someone else who also got slammed into lockers in high school, I figured it was just easier to go it alone. Work with people, but not try to get any closer. It was safer for everyone involved.
The fact that Dr. Zelenka wanted to make friends with me, either out of some fascination with the Abnormal, or out of pity, or whatever reason he has -- if he can hide his feelings, he's certainly capable of lying -- I'm uneasy about his interest. I know that there are people in the world MWG who use people and don't care about the consequences. As much as I might have wished for friendship when I was younger, I know that can be a vulnerability someone can exploit.
So, despite what Dr. Heightmeyer might think, I don't need friends. I've lived without them for 34 years. I'm fairly sure I can continue living without them.
Dr. Zelenka looked... unhappy. Not upset, but not happy, either.
I should be more skeptical, since Dr. Heightmeyer said that he can hide his feelings. He could fake that as well.
I'll have my time back that won't be spent listening to him.
He said that he wasn't sure what he'd do tonight, that he would think of something.
And yet...