Hey now.. I don't think this is entirely fair. I don't think Kelly or I do that to you. And you haven't made it over for any of the last crafty nights (no one did actually).
As for weekends: God I wish I had more time to myself on weekends, but if you're lonely why don't you just call? it's possible we're just sitting in the house chilling which is my preferred mode of operation for weekends.
I think, in general people do not realize what it is like for someone with severe depression to be able to make any attempts at mundane tasks that non-depressed people can easily do. It's hard to speak up for yourself when you just.feel.you.can't. I've been there and I hurt for you reading this post. Your feelings are very real to you and that is another part that is often misunderstood, like people think you can "just snap out of it"
the fortunate part for you, is that you do have a great set of friends that are very understanding. I know from what I read on lj that everyone is pretty busy and in the state you're in (as I've done it too!) it seems personal against you. I don't think it is, at least I doubt it would be w/ the same group of friends that we have. But maybe if you can establish a coding system, a chart of some sort...or just say listen I fucking need you today (that would be like level red or something) so that when you are really down v. the days that are "just down" <---as if those are nothing right?...then someone is
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It is good to know that someone understands, and yes, I know that people who do not have sever depression just can't understand. Their brains work differnet. Thanks for the support and addvice.
I can't even tell you how much I connect with what you're saying about the loneliness here. I've felt that way a lot...it is really depressing. I know exactly how that feels. I felt that way a lot when I lived in Cleveland. It was nice when we lived across the street from each other
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As for weekends: God I wish I had more time to myself on weekends, but if you're lonely why don't you just call? it's possible we're just sitting in the house chilling which is my preferred mode of operation for weekends.
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the fortunate part for you, is that you do have a great set of friends that are very understanding. I know from what I read on lj that everyone is pretty busy and in the state you're in (as I've done it too!) it seems personal against you. I don't think it is, at least I doubt it would be w/ the same group of friends that we have. But maybe if you can establish a coding system, a chart of some sort...or just say listen I fucking need you today (that would be like level red or something) so that when you are really down v. the days that are "just down" <---as if those are nothing right?...then someone is ( ... )
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