I'm sooooooooooooo happy!!!! things seem to be lookin up!!! just got done talkin to the most wonderfullest guy in the whole world! he makes me feel soooo good inside... like i'm a star, an that i'm special! i love him sooooo much! hes showed me that it doesn't matter where u live, or what u look like, or anything like that.. its all about how u ( Read more... )

life really blows. things all have reasons for the way they go right??? hopefuly..... cuz i dunno how much fuckin more of this shit i can take.

hi, i'm kinda ok now, still a lil mad but not nearly as bad as i was. i'm feelin a lil deprived, an goin through withdrawl! i can't get no... satisfaction! ok... that was a lil lame..... but i'm perdy bored, an i was supposed to goto manders house, but my mom said no cuz, i'm still sick!!!!! i'm happy we don't have school tomarrow! that rocks... i ( Read more... )

ppl are really fucked up these days. they beleive all these fuckin rumors, an shit, an don't even confirm them to see if they are true. i truly have no chic friends i can trust. they are all bitches.they go an act like its this huge thing, when they find out through the grapevine that i supposedly said shit about them. so fuckin what? what makes ( Read more... )

*yawn* i just woke up, an i'm hungry!! today feels like its gonna be an ok day.. that a bout it.

Well! i still haven't acheived sleep yet, an i am really hyper! among other things. hehe i've been talkin to sum of my other friends, like david, an mandy again, an they both are reassuring me that all is gona be ooooooootttttttttayyyyyyyy. i feel really really happy now that i got everything off my chest an i can finally breathe!! wheres my Joey ( Read more... )

ok, so i tried the sleepin thing, i discovered how hard it is to sleep when u can't breathe!! i talked sum things over with tracey an mandy an i am startin to feel better about everything. they've always been good pals, even when me an mandy kinda stopped communicating for a while. but i think the time apart did us more good. Mandy is one of my ( Read more... )

*yawn* i'm very sleepy right now, an i'm prolly gonna goto bed. Just wanna say sorry to Joey, an anyone else if i made them mad, but u can't really be mad for the way i feel right? maybe u can, i dunno. hopefully, i can keep at least a friendship with Joey, if, that is, he doesn't wanna sever my head or sumthing like that. *cough* hopefully i'll ( Read more... )

OK, well this is my first entry, an i just wanna say, i'm sorry if i offend anyone, but this is how i feel. lately i've been doin a lot of thinking about me an my friends. like how much should i really trust them.... if at all. the only person i do trust is Joey, but sumtimes he does things that make me question that.. like he messed around, then ( Read more... )