My Best Friend Gave Me The Best Advice
WARNING THIS WILL RAMBLE AND MAYBE NOT MAKE SENSE, SORRY.
So lately I have been a no-show and not very vocal on many channels on the internet, my phone, or even real life. So here's my update and hopefully it won't scare people as much as it might. I just need to rant and ramble and report. I have been going through some real rough times recently and I know those who read this are thinking, "When is she not?". But guess what: There are happy times in my life and some of those times I just plain don't talk about and others I forget about the existence of the internet. I think that sometimes my negative feelings go this way too. I'm not sure.
So recently all I have been focusing on is my classes and my finals. I failed my math class at no surprise to myself, after score two 70s and a 60, and no homework I knew I was screwed, even if I did start with two 95s. So that was not a big surprise. I passed my Myth class with an A. I passed my English with a B which kind of confused me because I was wondering what would happen when I turned in eight out of ten assignments in late, apparently nothing. >> I love that fact and I am hoping to get that same teacher for my English 102 class. I am thinking of taking English 111 next semester which is technical writing, like non fiction books and manuals and stuff. But it would be helpful towards my major. But I sidetracked where was I, oh yeah grades, so my last class was physical fitness which was shitty cause you had to have a school ID to use the gym, and I enrolled WAAAY late. So I ended up not getting enough hours in to pass the class, cause you had to have like... 14 or something to be able to pass. >> I have 5. I know I am fat and lazy and a horrible person, whatever.
Other than that my major concern is getting a job. As much as I love my current room mates who are nice enough to let me stay here for basically no rent. I need to get out and pay mah billz. So I'm trying everything any suggestions leave em in a comment. I will read. There's not much coming in on this front though. I need to figure what I am doing wrong so I can get some sort of monies into my pockets. >< I drove into Phoenix for an interview, and this is a drive considering I live all the way in Buckeye now. And the people were like "lol didn't have you on the list sit here while we pick our asses." I wasn't amused. Then after looking over my resume and snorting the old guy who ran the place looked at me and basically was like "lol No plz." Yeah so I walked to the Wal Mart down the street and got a drink while waiting for Sara to pick me up.
Speaking of her, he car got stolen in Jan uary, found in Feb and Fixed today. S she wanted to drive me to my interview. I let her hey it saves me on gas, plus I needed to borrow her business jacket. Then we went and had a loverly convo with a friend who works at Frys about aloe and BDSM. It was odd.
Things are okay on the home front for me other than the stress created from looking for a job and the threat of everyone calling me and asking for the money I owe them. I would pay them if I had any. Jared's being Jared which is as much as can be expected. ^^ He's getting a Fila Brasiliero puppy, well okay 9 months old but still a puppy. Even if it does way around 100 lbs already... he will be training it for Police work. His 21st bday is in August so I am wishing him luck with everything.
I've been feeling outcasted and depressed recently even though I know I am not. >> I have no clue why but sometimes these feeling just get me down and I have no clue why they are there. I am thinking of seeing a shrink on the states dollar since I have their awesome care until October, when it turns a little less awesome.
My mom is leaving in two days to return to Germany to help pack for my sisters move to her new base, even though I don't know where they are going yet, and I don't think they know either. My dad will be going back up to Las Vegas in a bit too. >> I think my sister needs the break even though she is stressing about my brother in law going to jail in July and about the baby and finding sitters when I actually find a job and all that. >> I dunno not like I have anything better to do anyways right? I liek the baby too, Drake is quiet and sweet and adorable. >> For now. And Noah...needs meds. Friggin ADHD and my sister still hasn't taken him to the hospital to get tested for it. Even though anyone who meets him knows that he is.
Funny thing happened to me yesterday I got a phone call from Britters in CA and she td me about having liquid in her brain and how she had to have surgery and get it syphoned off into another part of her body. And I have to wonder why, even though I know almost tne people who are in contact with her on an almost daily basis and she had known about it for over three weeks befor ethe surgery and she had to tell me about it after the fact instead of one of our friends keeping me updated. >> I'm not mad but I hate losing contact I guess I will have to go ahead and start keeping in better contact with all those I love.
I think that I have run out of things to say without running down the streets waving my "I'm EMO" flag and sounding redundant. Cause I know you guys get enough of that shite from your other f-list buds. >> It's okay every once in a while but not every post.
FUCKING AMAZING I love the lyrics. It's Linkin Parks new song New Divide from the Transformers 2: Rise of The Fallen OST. I have a bunch of other songs I would love to share but i dun wanna over load you. So here is the other one I am addicted to at the moment:
Ain't No Rest For The Wickerd -Cage the Elephant
I love you all.
Val this one is for you, if you even read this shite anymore. I think you would like this song. Look at the lyrics. They remind me of you and me. I miss you. My best friend above all. <3