It's been a while

[dragon_goddess]

A lot has been on my mind lately and I don't know why I haven't thought to write in my journal. I guess because I'm afraid of what I'll write and then making myself cry, but I'm not going to cry not this time

Comments

[chandraleila]

~*she hugs you warmly and tightly*~

I know somewhat what you mean by this my dear sister...you and I both give our hearts away to very few people, but are always afraid that it's not the right one so we become hesitant and doubting.

I wish I had some advice to help you...but I'm afraid I am as lost in this boat as you are, oceans apart, but still just as bloody lost.

What I can do though...is offer you an ear to cry into. You are welcome to call me, I will be there to help as best as I can. Sometimes ranting and crying at someone can help. Who knows...it might be fun...having a good cry and all...might help us both out.

Much-o Love,

~J~

[dragon_goddess]

Thank you very much sis. That means a ton to me. I shall take you up on that offer.. because I have other things to talk about but we'll get to that later.

[chandraleila]

any time darlin, any time, if I don't answer I'm either a sleep or in class, but call any time

[desolatespirit]

"The last thing I want always becomes the thing that happens"

And you are completely right because that is nature's intended course. There are people, such as yourself, who know very well what will happen because they just do.. a sixth sense almost, if you will. However, that does not mean those people like to dwell on or admit to what they know. So in turn our subconscious has the nerve to ensure that we dwell on what we do not want to happen, but know it will. Because we know it will happen (and know we do not like it) we are able to convince ourselves it is the last thing we want... but of course we know it will happen. Our subconscious thought is more active than many realize, though not to say you do not know this, for I am sure you do.

Anyway, you are human like the rest of us... and it sucks.
~Sammantha

[dragon_goddess]

I know I'm human. Someitmes I wish I wasn't but then again it's not something I chose to be in the first place.