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[dragoneer]

Fucking Mark, man...i still feel bad that he went and told everyone what i did.

Yeah, so I tried suicide again...And i'll probably do it again too...and again, until I finally rid myself of my life in this reality, with no one and nothing except a handful of friends that i can't even see..

Because I can't control my actions anymore

Comments

Please...

[silverscreamer]

Dennis, I'm sure you might feel like it's pointless for whatever freakin' reason you have, But dang it why won't it sink in that we all care about you and don't want anything to happen for you? We love you like a friend or even a brother, and you should realize that it would destroy us all to loose you too. Why won't you listen to us?

Please... Please think about what you're doing... Think about all the things you might be able to accomplish... The people you'll be leaving behind... Doesn't it matter to you anymore? Don't we matter? No one should feel like that's the last way out. Won't you please let us be there for you? We want to help you.

We love you...

We really do...

Conditions...

[ddreslough]

I'm intrigued by your quote "Because I can't control my actions anymore." For me, that's exactly what deep clinical depression has always been like. Like my arms are stuck in molasses, and my spirit just refuses to even try anymore. But, speaking as someone who's had to come out of two major depressions, I hope you can eventually believe me when I say "This is a medical condition, and you can manage it." I just hope your mother and friends have hooked you up with a good doctor/hospital. In the same way someone who's just woken up from a major operation or heart attack can think it's the wrong year, can barely remember their own name or be paranoid or otherwise unable to function at 100% mental capacity, a person emerging from a very serious depression can be unable to think straight, and certainly won't be ready to think positively. In the same way one wouldn't expect a person who'd just woken up from a major heart attack to take total responsibility for caring for themselves and healing themselves, I hope no one expects you to "

*shudder*

[peterpan23]

Dennis.... please no... please... *nuzzles softly

to Dennis from Crona/TIff

[anonymous]

Dennis

Hey

[darkskweek]

Heh... I think that more than a few of us are about to make irrational decisions that will, in the end, change our lives dramatically.
I know my choice is about to come to fruition, soon enough, and I don't think anyone will see me for a long time.
And yet, I'll regret it when I'm gone, because I know that people will miss me.
They already do, but at least they try to keep in contact with you, eh Dennis?
Take care of Kat and the others for me while I'm gone. I'll probably be back one day, and I expect everyone, including you, to be -somewhere- when I get back.

Or I swear, I'll come up to your cloud and knock you off it, just to make you come back to us, Den. :p

Okay, that doesn't make sense.
Just babbling, so I'd like that stricken from the record.