Ah... I remember this feeling...

[dragonette]

I'm homesick. I've had my first bout of "I wanna go home NOW!" syndrome. I'm really lonely and usually I go people watching when this happens but it's one of those days where I acknowledge the fact that in the sea of people everyone is in couples and groups and I'm the only one sitting by myself

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[tearn]

*waves* Awww thats gay, I hate it when homesickness happens. I found it useful to keep a calendar of when I was supposed to leave. Kept a diary too.

As for the not knowing what to do part, now's a good time for you to think and maybe do some research of what you really want to do. No outside influences to muddle you up. Make yourself a plan and try to stick to it when you get back. Even if you dont stick to it all the way, it will make you feel better..... or atleast it did me, when I was in your position.

Its a hard world to get a decent job in right now. And that totally sucks balls. The only thing in the world that I really want to do, Im having a hell of a time doing because of money. I just got an offer to train in Florida at an excillent facility and I probably wont get to do it because it costs a crap of money to take a horse down there and I need to have a horse for this position. >.<; Frustrating as hell.

Ah well though, at least we can bitch together. :)

[dragonette]

I had a countdown the last time I was in Japan. I just made it 5 out of the 6 months before I started... LOL

But yeah, this was basically a ploy to get me out of Squamish so I could decide what I wanted to "do with my life." I mean, me and kids? I knew this wasn't going to be a match made in heaven before I even got here. ^_~
Of course, I'm usually so exhausted that I get home, have a nap, wake up, eat dinner, have shower, go back to bed. I had some energy before and I could actually do stuff after work but it disappeared on me. So... Blah...

I've always been so impressed with your tenacity. You know what you want to do and don't care that it's usually a "rich man's game." I would've been intimidated out of it a while ago. Bummer about the position, transporting a horse is just crazy expensive and really hard work! One of my Dad's friends has a barn (it's really run by his wife and daughter) and he has to transport horses to Texas and back and it's just a brutal trip.

But yes. Bitching together are what friends are for, right?

[tearn]

Yay for bitchin!

Yeah, Im gonna try and figure something out. If not I think I'll save up for a half a year or a year and then go. It really feels like this is the place I need to be. Especially after talking with her on the phone. But damnit why does the place I want to go to have to be half way across the freaking world! >.<; lol I never seem to pick the easy thing. *head desk*

A well, we definitly need to get together when you get back and do something. Maybe go visit Ang again. Go bear in hottub!!! lol

[dragonette]

I totally read that last sentence wrong. I'm like "I'm NOT going naked in the hot tub. I don't care if it's you and Ang... Oh wait. That's right, we thought we saw a bear last time." Me and my blindness, LOL.

Well... I'll definitely be back in August. If not April. If I really freak out, December/January. But my pride probably won't let me go until April. LOL That's when my contract is up.

But yes! The stuff and the doing there of! I want to meet your baby too! He looks so sweet! I miss my boys terribly. I was talking to Mom yesterday and I could hear Earl barking in the background. I nearly cried. ;_;