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[dragonflyfaith]

Sometimes I find myself at my desk not knowing what to type. I stare at the screen not knowing what to type and it drives me crazy. It could an email, something simple or like right now a journal post and I just do not know what to type. It's not that I don't have anything to say or that I don't want to post, I just freeze.

I've been feeling like

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[pinky_amy_angel]

*Huggs* sweetie!!
I totally understand what you mean about freezing when you go to write an email or post...as a matter of fact, it's happening to me now!!!
And the bit about not being able to decide what to eat...I can't list the number of times I've gone back and forth in a food court trying to work out what to eat.
And suddenly not wanting to eat something you normally eat lots of.
I don't think you're depressed or having panic attacks (partially because that would mean I was too!!), but maybe you do need to slow down a bit, make sure you sleep, and get some pain relief.
(I know, I know, I'm one to talk, aren't I!!)
Going through the motions does often seem better than stopping and feeling, especially with CFS and Fibro, because sometimes you feel like if you stop you'll crash, but if you keep going, you won't...crazy logic, isn't it??
I'll stop now, before this turns into a post of it's own!!
I love you, and I miss you!!

Gosh

[faerie_pink]

Let me first state the obvious --- concerning all the things that Amy already commented --- I honestly don't know much about how you really feel. I don't know the pain, I don't know the tiredness, and I've never to my knowledge had a panic attack (and I'm sure I would know if I'd had one). However, I do know what you mean about "going through the motions". I have often wondered about my reactions lately, or the lack thereof. When I got my car, I should have been excited. I wasn't. When it was in a wreck, I should have been upset. I wasn't. When I got promoted, I should have been proud. I wasn't. I began wondering too, could I be depressed? I still don't know. But I do know that now that I'm planning on going home. Suddenly I'm seeing good in things I'd previously ignored. I'm feeling things again and I'm truly happy for the first time in years. I'm not trying to make this comment about me, but rather, trying to say that maybe you're simply missing something. For me it was a place to call home, a place with family, friends, and love.