I've been realizing how much I've evolved over the past semester, starting from the beginning of summer until the present. It seems to me that this change has been a negative one, where I was striving for the opposite. These days I spend mostly in my room, sleeping, programming, animating, video gaming, or cleaning up after myself. I sit on my ( Read more... )

It pains me, how correct the Omen I've experienced was. I in no way expected it to occur to this caliber. But here I am, expecting to go to a funeral on Thursday. How my heart screams for a different reality ( Read more... )

You know how they tell you that in life there are ups and downs, like a roller coaster? Well it's come to my attention that it's more like a roller coaster than I expected. The longer and higher you're going up in life, the faster and lower you seem to crash back down. Negative, Negatives, Negativos. This is something I'm not too proud of ( Read more... )

I haven't written here in a long time, I do miss blogging, or making time for myself and friends for that matter. Everything has been business, business, BUSINESS. I think I've lost the purpose of my existence in trying to do this for that class, and that for this coworker, and All of these other things so that ( Read more... )

I look down at the ground and I don't recognize the shadow I cast very well. My shadow of the past is faded, barely in existence, a thing of the past. But I wonder what I lost with it? I've changed a lot in the past year. Last year I was sitting in a room full of myriad of different people, and I could get along with every last one of them. We ( Read more... )

What is natural? if a coyote eats all the bunnies in the forest, is it unnatural, just as man cuts down every tree in the forest? *shrug ( Read more... )

After sipping on some iced coffee I realized that my father won't be there for my sister's graduation ceremony. That really tossed a grenade into my happy state of mind. I nearly dropped my coffee when it hit me.

I miss you pops,

Sorry I smoke too much.

Ever been chilling out and then hear a song that totally knocks you off your feet ( Read more... )

The things I remember ( Read more... )

I was going to post soon about how I finally reached a point where I no longer had something to be depressed about. The first time since September 2008. Then Monday rolls around, and. well ( Read more... )