So I posted last night when I was in a bad place. I feel better today, even though a bit down about not having a good time last night. In truth, I was upset last night because a friend made it sound like he didn't want to be there when he made an off-color remark. It made me feel un-emportant. I realize it was a joke and uasn't meent to be serious ( Read more... )

I just had the worst birthday I have ever had. I'm crying myself to sleep and the worst part... I'm alone in this. not turning my computer on at all tomorrow. i bet no one will care

The funny thing about a job is how much energy it takes away from the things you love to do. Because by the time you come home it's all wasted on things that you don't give a shit about. Lately I have had a lot of time on my hands to work on things that matter to me. I have been writing. No... I have been WRITING. I had certain projects pushed ( Read more... )

I am enjoying the storms that are happening right now and even though that seems a little odd to some people, I think most of you understand me well enough that it makes sense. I am currently going through one of those periods in my life where I am starting to question the stability of everything. The health of my family members is one of the top ( Read more... )

I loved this song the moment I heard for the first time as a kid. My parents had albums that they would always want to play for me but I gravitated to just a few of them because I had an imagination that wanted darker images. I always believed that this song was talking about death. About wanting to enter the after life with such urgency that ( Read more... )

There is so much to do and such little time. I'll post on Monday to fill you in!!
have a good weekend

Cordy's angry

I have burnt out 4 lightbulbs by turning on light switches. One of them busted just when I walked by. Must be the mood I'm in. I also blew out the powersupply on my computer last week at work. They had me sit at another desk for the rest of the day until they replaced it. My co-workers were calling me Powder. I wonder what would happen if I stood ( Read more... )

I am sometimes struck by the presence of great negativity in the world. I am not afraid of it. I am not going to lose sight of the big picture because of it. Love is a very huge and powerful thing. Sometimes that's all it takes. I ride on a steed with ivory light and my armor is intellect. I am young but I get weak. I seem to embrace even when ( Read more... )

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