I have a tendency to feel guilty about even though I really shouldn't

• I can read quite fast
• I am quite smart
• People find me attractive
• I am in a happy relationship that has a future with someone who truly cares about me
• My parents aren't divorced

 So today was Monday of my last finals week. Of course I don't have any sit down finals until Thursday but I did have 3 take homes that I have been working on all week end. Not to stressed about the finals but the fact that all of this is Final.

I have been in school since kindergarten. With first days, spring break, summer vacation. Now it is all ( Read more... )

So I came back to school with a stowaway. My Sis! 
She is going to come to classes with me and learning about my school.

So totally scary that she is looking into colleges already. 

 I am not a fan of nighttime. Or rather I am not a fan of being alone at night. Not that I think that there is a monster under my bed or in my closet anymore. But rather at night you are so alone that you don't even have your shadow to keep you company. I have gotten used to company, friends or Kyle to talk to until time for sleep has come. But it ( Read more... )

I remember about 3 years ago, when my grandfather got really sick, my mom told me that we shouldn't say good bye. Rather we should say, 'see you soon'.  And I remember saying that to him every time I saw him, over the summer and when i would comeback, basically every weekend. I was so afraid that I wouldn't get to see him again.  I wanted to say ( Read more... )

I should be asleep. Resting my body and my brain for tomorrow. Up early for a field trip and then 6 hours of work afterwards. But I can't. I am so fully awake it is almost sad. I could try to start conversations with people. Or watch a movie or tv. Or just scour the internet for stupid stuff. But everything that I actually want to do, I can't I am ( Read more... )

It is only on a day which I took forever to wake up, not to mention woke up with a headache, actually find myself putting on some makeup and picking out jewelry. yay me? Now I have 3 classes back to back. Thankfully no work tonight.

So this weekend was fun, Friday with the girls, had a drink or 2, saw a magician, played cards, went dancing(ish). Just relaxing. Then Saturday Kyle rolls up just in time for me to go to work, but talk and try and figure out if we can agree to watch anything and that shifts just rolls by. Sunday, spent the day at AutoCross watching Kyle race and ( Read more... )

 At least my spring break is fully in March this year. This is probably one of few times I have been super homesick right before a break. I miss being home and my family. So I am going to enjoy this break, relax, catch up on reading and homework, visit people.  And for once sleep will not be something I am lacking in going into the start of break.

 Maybe I have had a bit too much to drink. 
Maybe I feel so far away from people who care
Maybe I feel like no one cares.

I know i am crying
 I know I am lonely
I know I am alone
 I know I don't like it

Thus I should just go to bed hope it all pass as I rest. Tomorrow will be a better day. It should be. If not, I might just cry again.