i think its time...

[dramamine29]

alright. so for as long as i can remember, i've never blown up in anybody's face. i don't get mad, and can often let things pass. but, the littlest things stick with me, and hurt for months after. and i can let go of huge brawls

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[normalxdays]

don't worry lauren i love you too and know that you're not mad. i understand where you are coming from with all the paranoid remarks and i will tell you for the 890890845th time that we don't talk about you behind your back. why would we? i mean ask yourself that. and sadly you've grown up in a society/enviornment where image is everything i know its' hard but hopefully someday you will realize that they way you look doesn't mean shit and though i honestly don't think about the way i look as much as you it is on my mind alot. it's hard though...that's how kids judge other kids at school and just now and i think you just need to vent more...maybe holding stuff inside when you are in a fight makes things worse, you need to express your feelings so people know who you are, so they know the real lauren, not some fictionalized "happy" lauren. <333 sorry this is so long : )

Da

[anonymous]

eey lauren. yes, as you said, we dont talk behind you rback.. blah, thats not the issue. so its obviously as you vigerously stated that you cant stop thinking about how you look, which i think to some extent everyone has. i know i do, but as someone who's never worn the nicest clothes, i can get away with wearing a sweatshirt everyday. i think for you to feel better theres a serious hurdle to get over that is being entirely content with who and what you are. hah its no reason old people let their stomachs hang out - they've made the same discovery. it doesn't matter if your fat or not, it doesn't matter if you have a double chin. what matters is that you'd be able to truly subdue those thoughts and concentrate on whats truly important; what matters in friends and love and anything else you'll encounter - being insanely content with who you are

[dew_dropink]

oh heeeey
its laura
please be my csi buddy tomorrow night. i request thy presance. presnece? presants. either way. be there or be square.
oh and i just discovered your journal today. of all days to discover hmm? and im glad that you know that dylan and i love you just about as much as life itself. because that is true. see you asap madam

[holding_my_own]

im very sorry to hear that you feel that way every day...to be honest no one really cares what you look like...its not like your the heaviest kid in the school and people can see that you weigh 1000 pounds...so since your not like that people don't notice and we are lucky that we go to a high school that is really laid back and people just dont care about each other...so you should try and stop stressing about it cause everything is fine.
love you!!
Kelsey