Comments | dramanerd22: Oh Depression... *MAY TRIGGER* What a good waste of time

dramanerd22

Oh Depression... MAY TRIGGER What a good waste of time

Jul 14, 2004 23:09

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it's mal...i heart you long_goodnight9 July 14 2004, 23:16:00 UTC

hang in there ashley, people who havent dealt with this sort of thing before find it difficult to believe that hurting yourself could actually serve to sooth. i myself have never taken that path, but i have known many an undisclosed child in my day who did, and at first, it really scared me. you really should find another way to vent, b/c you could end up seriously hurting yourself, and i think thats what scares people the most. they will always treat you like you are volitile, unless you can prove them otherwise.

i know this probably seems strange coming from me when we havent talked in so long, but i worry about you too, and i just want you to know im here if you ever wanna talk.

qwerty180 July 15 2004, 18:43:55 UTC

wow...i don't even know what to say except that i'm sitting here staring at a box slowly filling up with words. Every letter i type just makes me want to cry more. I feel so guilty. I feel responsible for your depression. I never called u stupid. I may have called self-harm stupid. I guess it's just cause i don't understand it. I don't understand what could be so bad that would cause you to hurt yourself. I want to, but i don't. Everytime i see those cuts on ur arms and legs, i want to cry, because i know that you were so upset that u felt u had to cut urself to be noticed. I haven't tried to talk to you about it, because it scares me so much. I just wanna erase it from ever happening and still think that your the same happy-go-lucky kid i met in 6th grade. I don't wanna think of u and imediatly think about those cuts. Those tiny red cuts on your arm scare me more than anything you could imagine. Even more than dinosaurs. More than clowns. More than anything. The thought of losing you eats me alive. I wish that we ( ... )

thanx dramanerd22 July 15 2004, 19:05:57 UTC

Mal, hey woman, i didnt know you had a live journal. Well, yeah, thanx for caring darling! Sometimes i just need to let things out and instead of letting it out little by little, it all comes out in one big bombshell of emotions. But, i dont think i would ever, ever, kill myself by cutting. I dont mean for it to be a way to end my life, just a way to numb my pain. Thanx babe ( ... )

misterblister July 15 2004, 20:07:53 UTC

Hey Ashley,
I can't tell you that I've been there or know how you feel because I'm sure I don't. I can only say that I love you and want to support you and help you in any way I can. You can talk to me any time, darlin'. :) Luv ya!

llamallane July 15 2004, 20:34:53 UTC

Ashley dear, we dont talk all that often as of late but i still try to keep up with you life by reading this fancy little journal you have here ( ... )