i cchanged my mind... i just want something just a tiny bit more than average thats all. nothing more

everything in my life is average.... i want extraordinary

hey its the first day of may, which means fourteen days till my birthday and three until mikes and what is it twenty five or somethings till matts (?) woo for may, cept all the crap that i have to do in may. whatever.

last night at the olive garden was very much fun! met shawn/shaun/sean/idk how to spell it i should have asked, got to hang with ( Read more... )

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and I'll tell you something,
or many things,
I adore about you.
Then post this in your journal...

<3

okay so yeah even tho people suck and i dont understand precal, i am happy, so yeah i dont really have much to say except i really want a digital camera and for tom to feel better and mike too and brant and for everything to work out, oh and matt and matt too. i really hope movie night works out.. and i really hope i get to see danni rachel and ( Read more... )

 i have feelings that i...
have had before
didnt want
avoided
told people i had
told people i didnt have
told people i would never have
wanted
am affraid of
dont know what to do about
need
amd really really scared about
get angry about when i feel them
get stressed out about
feel anxiety because of
want to badly to act out
want to be known
hate
love

so yeah i cant ( Read more... )

okay so yeah. this vacation =equals= awesome. soooooper troopers=awesome, i love you people alot, very much as a matter of fact. thanks for coming over everyone and for all the fun times. tomorrow i am leaving for NewYork/Vermont for college visits, please please please text my cell and call me i am going to miss you all alot and i promise we will ( Read more... )

i found THE perfect dress for prom, its just plain and pretty and i love it. i am pretty damn excited, and i found shoes to match. they are perfect. and then i found a really cute light green bag with sequins on it from jcpennys that i really like  not for prom but for everyday use sort of thing. and i got to spend the day with my mom and alicia. ( Read more... )

so today was a good day and i feel relieved because i have no homeowrk tonight so i am basically done pretty much and everything seems to be working itself out. i basically forgot that i wil be home every night during this vaca except thursday and friday so yeah i need plans.... hopefully ill get to hang with em alot seeing as on wednesday i am ( Read more... )

today was a much better day than the ones that i have been having lately, it is so wonderful to see some people so happy, but i wish others were too.i think i have worked most of my issues out and i like where i am right now in life. i forgot my lunch at home today and i was really hungry. did i mention that i love emily! and danni or course! but ( Read more... )