I’ve given up on giving up slowly, I’m blending in so ( Read more... )

I'll tell you flat out
it hurts so much to think of this
so from my thoughts I will exclude
the very thing that
I hate more than everything is
the way I'm powerless
to dictate my own moods

I've thrown away
so many things that could've been much more
and I just pray
my problems go away if they're ignored
but that's not the way it works
no that's ( Read more... )

I slept in my up-do, if that gives an idea of how tired I was last night. I didn't get up til like 1:30 today ( Read more... )

So I can't decide whether I am excited for Homecoming or not. Everything seemed to be great in the beginning but slowly started spiraling downward. And it's all because of Matt. And I know technically it's not his fault, technically I am partly to blame. Ever since he decided he'd go our plans changed completely. We're not going to Burger King ( Read more... )

YAY We got Matt to go to Homecoming! lol We're super excited for that. He'll have fun and we'll have fun. Today me, him and Christine hung out for almost 6 hours after school. It was her birthday so we were out celebrating. She wasn't having a very good day, for some other reasons but also because of her LAME boyfriend, so I'm glad that it got ( Read more... )

Oh jeez. I spent soooo much money today. Like...around $300. Not including my homecoming dress, which I hadn't even planned on buying. But my stepmom came up and she heard that I found a cute polka dot dress so she made me come back and try it on. It didn't work out but ten dresses later I found the dress! Finally....I was so exhausted and the line ( Read more... )

Yay I love these things. I haven't done one in ages ( Read more... )

OK...so I'm home and nobody seems to give a damn. Jeesh...I am having trouble typing, I lost my skills while drudging around at band camp. I think I must be going temporarily insane for saying....omg I want to go back to band camp. It's not like I want to go back to work my butt off and stuff, I had fun this time! The skits were AMAZING. The best ( Read more... )

Why.....is a word that no one should ask themselves. If someone is confused they shouldn't ask why. If something bad happens they shouldn't ask why it's happening to them. Because, why ask a question that doesn't have an answer? In turn...it will only cause more confusion and frustration. Why is a word that can turn everything upside down. One ( Read more... )

Oh My God....I am so bored, and I don't think I could get any more bored than I am right now. I wish that something exciting would happen right now. Anything.....I'm sick of being bored. I'm so bored that I'm writing in here, that gives you an idea of how bored I am. You have to know how bored I am by the amount of time I have spent talking about ( Read more... )