I have never wanted to leave my home so badly. Everyone tells me Troy should be like my second home. But it feels like my first. I don't get along with my family like I used to. I miss not having a place to call my own. Nothing feels right wherever I go. I'm so not ready to leave---but at the same time I want nothing else. I feel like I was born ( Read more... )

I wonder sometimes why I let people hurt me. Like I don't understand why the things that have happened to me do happen. I feel like I get no say in my own life. I know I just tell people what they want to hear, because it's easier not to get hurt that way. I know everything happenes for a reason and I know i've always said that. But it feels like ( Read more... )

It's a brand new year, with a brand new start ( Read more... )

So my first semester of college is over. I can't say finally because it didn't drag on for me. I can't believe how much I have grown up and how people haved changed. I have realized now that life goes by entirely to fast. I feel so useless in the world. I feel that everything I worry about is so petty and that I shouldn't even be living. I'm not ( Read more... )

Livejournal was so high school for me. but it feels good to come back to the familiar ( Read more... )

Where to begin...

um well my life feels like it is spinning out of control.

but i shouldn't be surprised because I never get a say in anything that happens. i know i don't.

its 3:24 on a tuesday and now i have to go get ready for band practice.

I hate waiting on boys.

ahh the last couple of months left of school. i can't wait till its over. i just wanna get away from this place and meet a bunch of people who have never met me before, that would be really cool. this last week has been a real eye-opener. yeah it has. but hopefully for the better. i just wonder what god has in store for me. cause i don't believe in ( Read more... )

what happened to 2005?!!! ah well. it is amazing to go back and read some of these enteries. i feel like i have grown up so much. i wonder how it is gonna be when i get married. hmmmmm thats crazy to think about. i can't wait.

The only thing that I am sure of is your words. They mean alot more to me than you will ever know.

And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who
could not hear the music."
~Nietzsche