Well, guys Im back and again going through a bunch of bullshit. I miss my old life I wish things were simple and easy. I mean I guess life never was simple an easy but hey better than right now. Derek is an ass who used me and treated me like shit an cheated on me. I fuckin hate him. Im over matt an everything. Im single and going to be for a while ( Read more... )

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As a wise friend of mine said first loves come an go but never really leave. And mine will never leave either. Every night I will have some kind of dream to tease me an let me not forget him but remember all the things I miss. The color of his eyes the warm embrace of his arms and his smile. The way he made me feel scared and excitied at the same ( Read more... )

Just for a lil 411 If my bf does something that he says hes gonna do regardless of what I say, just to let everyone know I will brake up with him because this is something I feel strongly against. I know you all think yea right she says that but I dont think I have ever been more seirous in my life. He says regardless of what I think hes gonna do ( Read more... )

I think Im finally getting my life back in order, the kind of life I want no scratch that deserve. I work hard all the time and save my money but sometimes thats not enough. To have a plan an go through with it is exciting. You know what else. Starting next Monday Im going to go to my classes. And get my diplomma so I can go to college an do what I ( Read more... )

I know u are all tired of reading this but guess what im tired or writing it. Im tired of it all. Feeling like u can count on someone and them just fucking ignoring you or just acting shitty cause there in a bad mood. All weekend all I thought was how I missed you guys but no the second you get back you just act like im this big inconvence. If your ( Read more... )

grr Im getting like 350 dollars on ym next check and 112 of it on my stupid cell phone bill and 100 on contacts. So yea there goes all my money. But its okay. I love you all and beth you are one of my closest friends , your like a sister to me and honey I want you to know were still gonna grow up and live nex to each other and have our white picket ( Read more... )

Well everyone I have a cell phone now its 490 3431. So everybody better call my ass or im gonna be pissed off. I miss everyone so if you dont have plans for new years call me cell me matt beth an sam are getting a hotel room and a whole lotta other shit. So if you wanna join the fun call me.

Everyone have a safe and happy holiday, enjoy it with the ones you love and may all your Christmas wishes come true. Cause Santas coming tonight tonight Santas coming tonight Santas coming tonight tonight Santas coming tongiht. LOL

God fucking dammnit God jesus fucking christ why cant I do anything god damn right. WHY CANT I FEEL LIKE I FIT IN. LIKE I BELONG. I dont feel like it matters if im there or not. JESUS I want it all to be done an over no sleep the endless working an crying an not being able to feel like Im making a difference in someones life Im trying so hard. IT ( Read more... )