so last night pam texts me. then ten minutes later john texts me. this is all around 1230ish waking me up ( Read more... )

when i see him at work i dont want him near me.
yet when he's not talking to me im mad that he isnt.
when i'm home i dont wanna be with him.
when i'm home i do wanna be with him at the same time.
when he comes over im really really happy he does.
yet when we talk before he gets here, i dont want him to come.

WHAT THE FUCK?

no more myspace for meee

dana got me thinking about things with me and john

..i think i almost love him =\
..and i think he's 95% there.

so i started taking YAZ. love it!

john sleeps over practically every night. 
he chooses to. and i feel bad because i dont want him to think im making him or have him feel weird and not see his friends. but what sucks is when he goes away or doesnt sleep over,  i cant sleep. it use to be i couldnt sleep with him there. now its i cant sleep without him there. and now he's in AC for ( Read more... )

 three months. holy hell. im happy i said yes and sad that i waited so long to do it. he really is the best <3 [in all areas muahaha]

i fucking hate being a girl and all the fucking bullshit that comes along with it ( Read more... )

i really hate my family. well the family on my dad's side. they're so ridiculous. i absolutely hate the fact that i go to brookdale. everyone who knows me can tell you i want to get far away from there and wish that i had more options than that. what makes it worse are my sister and my stupid cousin, frankie. they are going to penn state. big. ( Read more... )

he's leaving tomorrow and doesnt come back until next week =[
sure its only a week and all but like idk. i missed him when he went to ac for three days.
this sucks.