Comments | dramaticsinner: january 13

dramaticsinner

january 13

Jan 13, 2009 22:45

I'm trying to devour new words. I'm raking my memory to recall every new name I've heard. I'm exploring places in my mind, that I've only been once or twice. I'm trying to make my feet rediscover the simplicity of the places that I've been. I'm trying in so many different ways, to rediscover who I am.

I know the basics. My age, date of birth, ( Read more... )

love, justin, confusion

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euphorictragedy January 14 2009, 18:56:54 UTC

... and you're letting him right back in your life like everything's okay. Like everything he did was fine. Like you're picking up exactly where you left off, but re-winded a little.

Are you still the same?

dramaticsinner January 15 2009, 14:28:06 UTC

I guess it would be hard to explain how everything isn't fine. But I'm hoping it will be. We're working on it. And we're fighting a lot. But it's hard to fight with somebody who knows they're wrong. We've both made mistakes. And we're both still learning a lot. And if he hurts me again, so be it. I don't think I can handle it- but there is always the possibility he won't. If I compare every man I meet to him, if I think about him while I'm with other guys, then somethings wrong. And if it was a year and I still didn't get over him, I don't think I will. Being with him is better than not being with him. And it might not work out. But there is always the chance that it will. I'll just have to wait and see ( ... )

euphorictragedy January 15 2009, 17:46:34 UTC

Oh you're def. not getting rid of me that easily. You may have misunderstood me a little, or maybe I was a little harsh in my comment. I do agree that I don't understand a vast amount of your letting him back in (I know that my pride would have over-weighed everything), but I do understand the need to try. I know you're not happy, and I know everything isn't okay with you, that's why I said *like* it's okay. I just want you to be careful. He was dangerous to you before, and could still be, but then, that's kind of the attraction though too, isn't it? It's more that I'm worried than any sort of lack of respect. Maybe even a little disappointment/jealousy, I won't be seeing you as much now either (with your boy and me eventually going to work soon). I love you Ginge. I will be here no matter what, welll... unless you like kill my dog or slash my tires or something, cause that'd be kind of crazy. However, I think I'm safe. Anyway (I know), good luck with everything.. and we need to walk to the dog (s) again soon, though lately ( ... )