One Unfortunate, One Depressing

[drbanality]

Having loafed around for a half-hour during my lunch break, accomplishing nothing, and feeling generally displeased with myself while being locked securely away in my deep imagination, imagining hilariously ideal scenarios, I returned to the music department a decrepit shell dreading the rest of a useless afternoon at work. My co-worker had been

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[lecterslamb]

I feel the same way about the loss of interesting and clever thoughts...I feel that since the end of high school my vocabulary has dwindled...I just don't write anymore, so when I do finally transcribe thought to paper it comes out flat and uninteresting. Looking back at past entries in previous journals I can feel the tenacity of clever wit and the vigor of youth throughout all my thoughts, nothing like what i write now which seems dull because I can find nothing to write about other than "the routine"... But honestly, what is different besides this? what has changed to cause us to lose that need to flex our mental capacities and gush with the philosophy of personal life and creative thought? College seems to have sucked this life out of me. I feel like a sponge, absorbing knowledge but only that, not putting it to good use...not like i was in highschool where i chose to learn what I felt like learning and challenged the rest...I think it was my defiance that made it all seem interesting. okay finished writing a journal entry in

[lecterslamb]

oh and by the way....I would have gouged that woman's eyes out with antique spoons and mounted them behind my cash register as a warning to other feminist whores.....A Warning bitch!!