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[dreadful_love]

As days pass and I know that the date I have come to dispise is creeping up, I feel as if my heart is being ripped apart inside my chest. I'm spending my time trying not to think about it, or dwell on the emotions that may or may not arise. For now I am trying my hardest not to think about anything. Not about my emotions, or how I plan to keep

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[thelostxtragedy]

I think you should purchase the claddagh ring as a gift for yourself. every girl wants something like that bought for them, but I feel like if matt or any other guy got it for you it wouldnt have that special meaning it would of before. Brian obviously can't purchase it himself, but its something he of course wanted you to have as a symbol of your love. You dont necessarily have to point it towards you to indicate you're taken, or you can and just wear it on another finger to indicate you're taken forever. or you could always wear it around your neck too. And I'm sure many are offering to go with you to his grave, which I already had. But dont feel pressured. I'm sure they dont want you to go alone because of what your emotional state might be. But at least my emotional state wont be to good too. And I'm generally quiet and can at least make it less awkward lol. Like i said let me know. If not I can always get directions and hit it up that day or his birthday too

[dreadful_love]

I am thinking about buying it for myself after all. Maybe make a new nacklace for the pentacle and charm matt's mom gave me and put the ring on with him instead. I'm thinking I'll get it at somepoint in the nearish future. Once I order it, I'll send you a picture of it. it's absolutely beautiful. I think you would have approved of his choice.

I realized I'm lucky for having all these people who are willing to go with me incase I do have a melt down so I don't have to drive home. I'm glad you came with me both days though. I like to believe we made eachother a little more comfortable instead of being there alone.

[thelostxtragedy]

yes indeed. and i drove lol so ya could of cried if you wanted too! lol