Yeah I asked for it. A question I never really wanted an answer to, but unfortunately asked.

SOmetimes I wonder why life dictates that we hate our loved ones for being the same as everyone else. Human.

I wish I were dead. Not really, but yeah, really.

I've been through hell and back again for my family in the past four years. I've learned so much through all of it. I don't know where I might have been if I hadn't learned foremost patience ( Read more... )

And why not? We were madly in love at one time and something brought the feeling back. I love Mark. That's what I sacrifice for. My Shelbs and him are my perfect world, no matter financial status. We all fuck up. Who is going to be there for you after that? The one who truly loves you most. That's Mark, I know that now.

If you are one who feels like You are owed something of me... You're sorely mistaken. The only people I owe anything to are creditors. If you call something you did for another person a "favor," then you ask for payback, then you should look up "favor" in the dictionary.

A place to vent and know that although few people still read I am valid in my feelings. I am so happy at this moment, I have to tell you because my happiness seldom is boundless. My husband loves me. I have a wonderful mother and father and I am loving life.

i have grown so much since the baby. i wonder what the fuck i was thinking. i find myself lecturing younger people as to how to live their lives. i wonder... was i that stupid. young people have the answer to everything. shoes tell everyone if you are poor or not if you are worth being friends with and if you are going anywhere... but you can wear ( Read more... )

Maybe I am looking for something we can talk about. What if I need an excuse for you to just have a real conversation with me. I want to be happy and content too. I also want something a little exciting too. I know I have been going about it all wrong. I am sorry to do that to you. I just want a little substance to our dialog. I just don't know how ( Read more... )

Isn't cool? Technology these days... I had my child and a few hours later there are pictures of her all over the internet. She is 11 pounds, 14 ounces and I had her via cesarean... I was really drugged up. The doctors were great ther nurses were great and the hospital was fabulous... St. Lukes @ the Woodlands. I am so happy.

Okay, so I'm married to a magnificent man, I am having his child and I have to be the luckiest person in the world. Okay, maybe in my mind I am the luckiest person in the world. Srill in order to learn what good is you must know bad as well. I learned the hard way, but I'm past that by far. Pregnancy will make you look back and you just know how ( Read more... )

I know it's been a while, but a lot has been going on for me. All these years i have been posting here about guys, parties, and friends. Wow... There are so many things in this journal I wish i could get a do over on. I don't think I would change a thing anyway. I complain a lot about the way things are going, but I just bitch a lot about crap. I ( Read more... )