today I had to tell MY MOM to clean out her closet.

weird??

but if i could talk to you, i would tell you i miss you. and i love you. this is all so wrong. i want to know it's meant for us to be together. i'm tired of trying to hide what's true.

life has a strange way of telling you who to love, and how to love them.

four years ago, i left you for the first time. i miss you as much now as i did then.

I remember running barefoot through the woods, letting the smell of pine and construction and animal feces overwhelm me. Sneaking across the creek, making our way over the rotted tree where Allison and I would lie on our bellies and soak our toes in the cold, muddy water-this was my summer haven. Neighborhood boys would play beside us in the ( Read more... )

things i want ( Read more... )

my head in the crook of your arm, taking pictures together the way it just felt right, laying against your chest, holding hands, grabbing your arm, sitting on your lap, talking.

it'll never be the same, i'm sorry. but i miss it too you know.

Every girl, pre or post-pubescent strongly desires a close-knit group of friends that will care for her, console her, and laugh with her throughout high school and into college and independent stages of life ( Read more... )

let's be honest again.

it's the first letter i've received in the past year that hasn't accepted me.

and i don't care...

if i had just won the stupid scholarship i wouldn't have to go to prom.

let's get real.

the only reason i don't want to go is because it reminds me so much of you.

i hate that, you know.

i HATE dancing. hate hate hate. it's not that i have social problems, or at least i think i don't have any social problems, i just think it's so awkward to jump and sway around to loud music with people i don't know very well. for one, my body's not equipped for it. when dressing up, i always wear the wrong shoes. always. and then i never ( Read more... )

it makes me SO ANGRY to know that i got a 70 on the english exam, when i studied and the exam was a practice ap test. seriously. no fair ( Read more... )