circles?
I was goin to type about my day but then I realized that my life is just the same thing over and over again. Nothing ever changes. I need to get outa this hell hole. I need some kinda change. I wish I could just get up and go. and maybe never come back. Change of scenery. Something is missing from my life.....what it is....Im not sure.. I need to get out....fuck im goin crazy! things just go in circles. the same thing day in and day out......
Tonight I watched Romeo and Juliet.....quite possibly the greatest movie.......*sighs* oh to be in love...
Will I ever feel that again? Or am I still feeling it? I dont know. I honestly dont know. I know nothing. I thought I did. but........all these emotions.....not knowing whats goin on...so much confusion. I feel..........ahhhh!
i give you my all...and what do i get in return? nothing....
things with the family arent goin very good at all. mom and i are fighting constantly. nikki is driving me crazy! i just wish they would leave me alone! mark...we arent goin to get into it. NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO MARK. IM NOT GOIN TO LIKE YOU. SUCK UP AS MUCH AS YOU WOULD LIKE BUT IM NOT GIVING IN. YOU HAD MANY FUCKING CHANCES AND YOU BLEW IT...so what if you are cooking and all that shit and trying to act like a dad! ive been screwed over too many times by my "real father"....you are no different then him! fuck you asshole. leave me the fuck alone. im not playing house. im not goin to pretend that i am happy and things are fucking peachy. i dont like you...IM NOT GOIN TO PRETEND! fuck! I hate him i hate him i hate him. I swear if he tells me what to do one more time im leaving.........fuck him.
calm down jayme......
where the fuck is everyone when you need them.
do you ever feel like you are alone and you cant talk to anyone cause you dont want to bother them with all your problems cause they have their own.....
fuck i need someone...more then just a friend. i need someone that will be there forever....i need nick....or someone like him!
calm down...
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fuck it all.