I ate dinner even though I didn't want to. I really want to sleep but I don't think I can. So I got on my computer and I decided I would watch shows online. Grey's Anatomy. I knew exactly what episodes, too. I know which ones will make me cry. Is that pathetic or weird? I need to. I just do.

I'm lonely.

A chapter should never be ended ( Read more... )

I feel like I have a lot of thinking to do. Like spring cleaning for my brain.

I remember in September, when I was saying goodbye to Mikey and Ashley for the last time. We were at Sara and Courtney's, and I was so close to crying. I hugged Mikey, and then I couldn't look at him anymore. Ashley came over to hug me, and I was sitting down. I hugged her. She's so tiny. I remember thinking that. So little. Like hugging a child. ( Read more... )

Hidden

If you place a fern
under a stone
the next day it will be
nearly invisible
as if the stone has
swallowed it.

If you tuck the name of a loved one
under your tongue too long
without speaking it
it becomes blood
sigh
the little sucked-in breath of air
hiding everywhere
beneath your words.

No one sees
the fuel that feeds you.

- Naomi Shihab

Psalm and Lament ( Read more... )

Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup ( Read more... )

I decided to search my AIM logs to help me understand people better. Silly, right? You gotta find it where you can:

Want-1112
Can't-1109
Love-757
Fun-662
Need-572
Hate-485
Wish-420
Sad-412
Happy-365
Hope-337
Tomorrow-336
Friend-282
Won't-221
Live-212
Crazy-195
Die-153
Dance-152
Yesterday-105

Make of it what you will. We want a lot. We want it all

Looking to:
Warmer weather
Greener pastures
Smoother waters

"When people walk away from you, let them walk. Don’t try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring for you, coming to see you, or staying attached to you. When people walk away, let them walk. Your destiny isn’t tied to anybody that left."