i'm rad. you're rad. lets hug.

no im not okay anymore. im not doing as okay as i thought. i was getting so much better ..day by day i got happier just a little ...and then it was like i hit bottom again.

he really doesn't realize how much i miss him. why can't things just go back to the way they were? why can't we be like we were wen we loved each other so much? there's no ( Read more... )

hmm hmm hmm ...iduno how i feel at the moment.

i feel sad, happy, annoyed all at the same time.

as for the sad and happy part..you all already kno wut thats about. for the annoyed part ...im not sure where that came from.

i think im getting better a lil more ..not sure but i think...maybe.

like its hard to explain ..im feeling sorta better about ( Read more... )

well im feeling a tiny bit better today. just a tiny bit. we talked and i decided to tell him that taking a week would do no good bc i knew what was going to happen at the end of it anyway. he felt the same. so this is it. its completely over now. its hard getting through stuff like this but hopefully someday soon ill be bak to my old self. ( Read more... )

and even after our strange conversation...
i still feel the same. i must now give him a week.
..he feels differently but he wants a week to see how he feels.
i can give him that.

i just hope all goes well bc as of right now
he has hurt me more than he could ever imagine and i didnt even know it was humanly possible to feel this sad.

Ahh wut a good yet sad weekend at the same time. Friday went malling with Alicia Mander Laurie Alexis Kazuki Kow Sten and Steven. good times. bought more sandals. i like sandals. im a sandal freak. :) then we went to Alicia's and watched some Sex and the City. woohoo.

Saturday-went to the dance store with mom to get more stuff for my show. then i ( Read more... )

Finally Friday. :)

lets have a good weekend shall we? i think so.

so wednesday went to school late cuz i got my braces off. huwaaa funfun. i think im already used to it. i thought it would take longer. one of my teeth hurt tho. :( idk y. it upsets me.

yesterday mommy picked me up right after school and i went to the dance store and picked up a few ( Read more... )

ok so this weekend was pretty good for the most part until like sunday...

Friday-went to the prom! it was fun for the most part except Chris got sick :( then i slept over Alison's house.

Saturday-woke up at like 12 something or 1 i dont remember ..then Mander Laurie and Kazuki came over and then we went to see Mean Girls and it was great! then we ( Read more... )

ok so im better from yesterday, i think everything is gona be okay.

and for the incident that happened while i was at dance... i think i just worked it out last period. so everyone be happy. :) woohoo.

im goin to get my nails done today with alicia. how exciting. i havent gotten my nails done in a while so it should be fun lol.

ahhh PROM tomorrow ( Read more... )

ok so yesterday was bad ..im still upset about it ..but im trying to let go of it till like monday so i dont ruin his mood for the prom or the weekend. its kinda hard to ignore it but im trying...

...my heart hurts

:( i duno wut i feel right now. but im trying to keep myself in a fairly good mood for the next few days. i think we just need to talk ( Read more... )