(Untitled)

[dreamingxhearts]

you know when you do something, if it's bad or not. but sometimes if it's bad... you still do it. well i choose the wrong 'bad' thing to do. i have ruined so much. i have just lost so much. i can't even begin to explain how badly i've fucked up. and there is no excuse for it, except that i am stupid... and that isn't an excuse at all. i don't know

Comments

[anonymous]

I know we all do stupid things in our lives. I wanted to tell you everyday how i was so stupid, but i was scared too. I didnt know how to say it, I didnt know how you would react. I know i should have even if it would have ruined the best thing in my life. But i couldn't, i never wanted someone as badly as i did you. i dont want you to forgive me for doing what i did, i know i was wrong, but that isnt who i am. The real me was the one who for 9 months gave you everything in my power to make you smile, to make you laugh, to make you love me. I quit smoking for a while, but i was so heart broken over you leaving me that its just an instinct that i get from my mom, i dont know. I know that its the stupidest thing that i could ever do in my life and that it can kill me. Why i do that to myself is beyond me, i have no excuse hurting my self. I only trust 2 people with everything in my life outside my family. I know i'm always nice to people but only 2 i would do anything for. And that is why what him and you did is 10 times

[dreamingxhearts]

....... i love you, i do.