I am no longer myself. I am some walking breathing zombie or some crazed lunatic that wants nothing more than to just destroy the people she dislikes. Everything is fading or being pushed away. Worthless and alone swell my thoughts and the rope that tugs on my neck veins seems to be choking the life out of me. Breathing never felt this hard. ( Read more... )

I guess I didn't say when I tried to tell you to leave what I really meant is I wanted you to tell me you were staying. I feel a little more normal when I am with you. It was how the friendship was supposed to work. You weren't supposed to head out the door. Hell I don't know what I am talking about. Breathe in and out. That is all I can hope ( Read more... )

sometimes I wish I could take things back. Take everything back. Maybe that would give me a little more sanity or maybe it will just make me more angry/lonely/hurt/jaded. There are so many adjectives and expletives that I would like to use to describe my life right now, but somehow it wouldn't ever be enough for people not to leave. I could beg ( Read more... )

If I ever really thought about it I stand to lose everything, but then I forget that I have already lost it all. Sometimes I really wonder if we try just because it feels good or if we really think and somehow we can win over the demons inside. Subcome to the feelings of inadquecy and it will help you understand that there is nothing that you are ( Read more... )

take me anywhere but farther down

Tonight was made me to make me feel miserable, worthless and unworthy. Filled with a bunch of pretentious jibber-jabber that means nothing in the long run. Someone kidnapped the friend I knew and sold them into slavery. I don't like this anymore. Tomorrow shall be filled with a warm blanket and a lot of sleep. I am done again. A hermets life ( Read more... )

I have loved this band since they came out but I just picked up the cd I already have with the 7 unreleased songs and this is awesome ( Read more... )

everything i thought, said and felt in the last 4-5 months please disreguard. It doesn't matter that much and I am just being a big baby as always. I spew words out of my mouth and they mean nothing. So please disreguard the last months of this pittyful life.

but please kickstart my heart.

I really don't know what is going on with me lately. I'm irrational, alone, and annoyed by everything. I am just a JOY to be around. Trust me. I just feel completely destroyed.