Paralysis comes. I think it can be a cured by a loving, trusting, sexual and romantic relationship. Paralysis is loneliness and I rail against people that say loneliness is inevitable. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BYNElueJj_w

Tonight is the the night, muthafuckaz. I'm stripping my hair dye out and transforming my room and finishing watching Fill the Void and making a list of stuff to do for work. And maybe I'll need some supportive attention but maybe I won't.

The answer is always to grow so much and so fast that the person that got hurt is left behind.

I want to remember and appreciate that when I tie myself in knots over relationships or technology or whatever that it is a choice to head to that place, not a trauma-induced compulsion ( Read more... )

Freedom by itself is such a rush and I want to have access to it forever, through the people I meet and places I go and pleasures I pursue and choices I make ( Read more... )

I am free

Free free free

Free from so many of the forces that bind so many

Currently I am free to run a bath and charge my phone

Love freedom

One of the many admirable traits of Paolo Sorrentino's The Great Beauty is it laughs at no one while poking fun at everyone. Orietta (Isabella Ferrari) is a minor character, a rich beauty who appears at one of Jep's evening soirees and who he takes to bed although as Orietta points out "it didn't seem like you really cared". Such is life when you' ( Read more... )

This is turning into something of a lost weekend.
Loving it.
But hate having work hanging over me.
Find a way to turn it into play...
Creativity is intelligence having fun.

I am addicted to the surface of things... it goes for myself, for others and for objects ( Read more... )

I don't want to be overdramatic but this week has moved me forward more than any week previously. Sex, money, work, wisdom. Everything, everywhere.

I am here, I am real, I can have it all if I let myself be smart.

I'm going to take more codeine. The excitement is too, too much.