I know I have not written in a while, but this poem I wrote in the link pretty much describe where I am at now. *I never written a poem in my life, but I wanted to give a try. If you want to comment I would appriciate your opinion on it . I don't care if it is a harsh one. thank you.
A day or two and I'll forget about you
A week or two and you will be gone for sure,
But I was wrong. How can I forget you?
Forgetting you is like forgetting I was born.
You are everything to me and the reason why I'm here.
The longer you hide the more I miss you.
Sometime, I wish I never known you.
It's True, My life wasn't complete, but at least I had some good nights of sleep.
Sometime, I feel it is God way of punishing me.
In fact, the first time we hugged , He told me:
"Out of all the precious pearls you have seen
She is the most precious pearl that you will ever see.
But you can't keep her, because you will never be good enough for her to keep."
Ever since, and my goal was to prove him wrong.
There must be something I can do to win her heart!
If there was a purpose to my life… this would be it!
Having this most precious pearl by my side will mean the world to me!
I will do the impossible to make her happy, but what makes her happy? Please tell me!
Life taught me that quitting is wrong, but this time quitting was not a choice.
Quitting meant that life will end.
First, I tried to change everything wrong about me.
I listened for all the clues, and the facts that will make her happy
I wanted to prove to her that I'm worth knowing, but sadly I failed.
It seems, as if the more I tried the more I scared her away
There must be something I am doing wrong, I say, but what is it? I wish I knew!
Climbing a mountain shouldn't be hard to achieve, but her mountain had left me broken to my knees.
I looked and searched for the key to her heart, but I found no key
I should have know better if there is no heart there is no key, but how can that be?
For that much beauty there must be a heart and a key.
My heart is broken and I'm feeling sad, but you know something:
With you or without you My Life must go on.
The heart will heal, but the scar will stay
And because of it my life will never be the same.
You might not understand what I'm trying to say
Or most likely you just don't care
I just hope one day you will not feel my pain
You ask...What pain?
"The pain to have so much love to give when the rest of the world just don't care"