A Year Anniversary
Life begins … You have a great childhood … A great family…The world is ready for you … You set your goals…you know what you want, but you don’t know how to get there… You try your best and you fail…. And you try again and you fail ... You keep on trying, and at the same time Love can wait … No need to pursue… Like they always say, love will come to you when you least expects it … and it did…it arrived late, but you didn't mind. You are happy it is finally there. She takes you by the hand… shows you a wonderful time and you cherish every moment of it. She opens your eyes on a new life and on things you never knew it existed especially at night time…, but nothing felt more wonderful than having to be yourself while you are with her…To have someone that likes you for who you are is priceless… The inspiration she gave was so strong that it made you want to be a better person and do better in life…Then, you promise yourself that you will never let her down and give up on her… You love her more than yourself…You promise her the world….Even life means nothing to you as much she means to you….until you realize it was all a lie and you are nothing to her. You were just a toy… a toy to play with in summer time…especially when she was bored… Now, the pain begins. The pain haunts you down day and night with no stop…it never stops. Whatever you do ...It never stops. You don't know what to do...to love or to hate? Love… anger…hate... you feel them all at once and sometime they come in cycles. You never sleep and you find it hard to breath. You just want to hear her voice and the pain goes awayIt is the worst pain you can ever have. It is the feeling of being stabbed in the heart with thousand knifes, all at the same time, over and over again. It’s the worst pain you will ever feel in your life, but there is nothing you can do about it. What did you do wrong? ... You ask yourself that question a zillion time, but you get no answer. You never hurt anybody in your life so why did she wanted to hurt you? Not willing to give up, you try to find a logical answer, but there really aren’t. Its abvious, she is a Jerk! she is born this way...lost in this world.. don't know what to do except hurting people and she don't care She is not a young person no more so she should know what she wants in life, so why is she still playing games at an old age? You always had been taught if someone cared for you that you should always turn the favor twice. So why did she never care? not even a bit? I never met a women that never showes any signs of emotions. It is true, she looks sweet and innocent with her born defect smile, but once you get to know her you will realize she is empty from the inside. Sometime I wondered if she is a women or even a human. Nothing lasted with her. All the good deeds disappeared the next day. You know there is so much you can give, but you can’t really give more than life. So why was she being so stubborn? Is she stupid? Or just cold blooded? How on earth is she going to find someone that will care about her more than this? We live in a world full of hate, so why would anybody turn away from love? I don’t understand. I didn't ask for any of this. I was doing somewhat fine before I met her. From the beginning , why did she jump into my life if she didn't want to stay? why did she seduce me with her eyes and smiles when we first met or was I just a picnic basket? Someone easy to hang out with? Someone to call at 11 at night to go out? it is a shame to play with people minds and hearts. Maybe I was just a friend, but she never behaved as a friend. Even as a friend she failed. She only cared about herself. You will die infront of her and she wouldn't care. I was nothing to her and she meant the world to me. Still, she accused me of things I Never did, and she left me with a big scar that is never going to heal. There is no going back now. The damage has been done, but she will always be in my memory regardless of what she did. It feels as if part of me is dead and all I can do is remember her with grief... life must go on, but it will never be the same.
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