Insanity
Ramblings
I never thought that I would see him again. It's funny how one look one word can tear your world apart. How in an instant you can get catapulted into a past you thought had been eradicated from your thoughts.
I had convinced myself that I had left the past were it belonged that the ties to another time another place in his arms had forever been broken. I can't believe I was that stupid. I can't believe that all it took was for me to see him again to realize that some things can never be erased.
He looked so beautiful and for one moment I forgot all the pain and all the disappointment. For one moment I forgot that I had a carved a new path for myself that didn't include him.
He looked so beautiful and had I ached with the knowledge that I still wanted him just as much as I did back then.
He had stood before me and my heart had betrayed me. I had wanted to reach out and touch him with an intensity that had surprised me. I had wanted to lose myself in the endless blue of his eyes. However, this time more than his betrayal separated us more than broken promises and vows divided us.
This time my will to let go had to be stronger that my need to be loved by him. This time past mistakes would not be repeated. This time to much was at stake.
So I walked away knowing his gaze was burning me, knowing his scent was calling me. I walked away before what little sanity I had left crumbled into a million jagged pieces.