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Jan 16, 2014 22:40

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roland_ofgilead January 17 2014, 17:12:21 UTC
hope things get better.

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dreams_ofcali January 17 2014, 17:16:16 UTC
They are better. That's the shitty bit. It's in dark, quiet, sudden moments that the feeling strikes, and I just think about how surreal it is not to know her anymore. I've lost friends since her, but none in the sane way (thank God), and none...well, none that meant as much, if I'm honest.

Also, didn't realize you still were on LJ.

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roland_ofgilead January 17 2014, 17:53:02 UTC
I'm in many places. ... lurking.

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dreams_ofcali January 17 2014, 18:10:01 UTC
Creeper creeper such a peeper, where did you get those eyes?

Do you know what the best thing of the last year and a half was? Finally choosing to rid myself of the Reveal family once and for all. Danielle went batshit on me because I refused to be friends with Adri again then told her it was none of her business. Jesus fucking Christ what a relief.

Sad to lose Audra, but for some reason, she chose to attempt to ruin my wedding day for me and then never speak to me again, so her loss.

For whatever reason, losing Lucy is something that'll never stop hurting, but only in a really abstract kind of way. I think b/c I never stood up for myself, you know? Never tried to defend myself to her and let her know how fucked up it is to hold all of your emotions inside and then vomit them in an *email* and then tell me you don't want to be best friends, while simultaneously emailing me about trifling pop culture shit. Pretty fucked up. I guess it feels unresolved.

The end.

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