Fuck this shit

[dreams_within]

I'm drunk, hurt, and lonely as a mother fucker today.  I've come to the realization that the word 'love' means fuckin' jack squat unless you back it up. I've been praying, craving a family that accepts me despite the fucks ups and the uphill battles I face but I've yet to encounter this, so tonight I'm fucking wasted because I could find no other

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[altol]

Sometimes I too feel the need to say, 'fuck it', get drunk, take a benadryl and give the world the finger for the day. (Note: NEVER mix copious amounts of alcohol and benadryl. You will vomit.)

The worst thing about loneliness, for me can be summed up in Bush's 'Glycerine' lyrics:
'I'm never alone, I'm alone all the time'
It's worse to have people around you and need from them things they aren't capable of giving you.

I hope you're feeling at least a little bit better now. There are always people that care about how you're doing, even if they do it in ways that make you want to drink and listen to depressing music. Thanksgiving with my family, for example, often makes me want to drink an entire bottle of Jack Daniels and dance naked on the roof to 'Grease' music, but I'm pretty sure they would give me a kidney if I needed it.

I don't know your family, but I know that people do care. (Even if they're practically a stranger with a computer hundreds of miles away.)

Hang in there.