Beyond Chrysalis
It has been so long. I haven't been here in a while. I missed it. Of course I am crazy. No you don't know what is going on...I haven't told you yet.
Sometime, approximately ten years or so ago, my DNA turned against me. Or rather it was programmed with a hereditary genetic disorder that would make my life just a lil difficult later on. It struck the killing blow about 5 or so years ago. I didn't figure it out until just recently (read about a year or so ago). Fortunately, I have corrected the issue (for the time being). And I realized that being on allergy meds and sinus medication and inhalers had affected my mind. I didn't see it at the time, but hindsight is a wonderful thing. I realize that most of my issues would go away with the correction, but I was unprepared for my discovery that I had been hiding this whole time.
Energy is through the roof, mental focus is at peak performance, attitude is shifting back to what it was 5 years ago. I feel great. I just wish I had paid enough attention to see the mental blocks when they slid into place.
I suppose this is an update of sorts. I suppose this is to let you all know that I am doing well. I suppose this is to apologize to all of you that lost me along the way. I suppose this is for me to admit that I was an idiot at times, even if I was impaired. When time allows, I would like to see my friends again. You know, the ones that I traveled with for a time. Ones that were just as damaged as I was, but found healing before I did. Yeah, you know who you are. Maybe I did get to change with you, but I was just a different kind of butterfly.
~blue
Sometime, approximately ten years or so ago, my DNA turned against me. Or rather it was programmed with a hereditary genetic disorder that would make my life just a lil difficult later on. It struck the killing blow about 5 or so years ago. I didn't figure it out until just recently (read about a year or so ago). Fortunately, I have corrected the issue (for the time being). And I realized that being on allergy meds and sinus medication and inhalers had affected my mind. I didn't see it at the time, but hindsight is a wonderful thing. I realize that most of my issues would go away with the correction, but I was unprepared for my discovery that I had been hiding this whole time.
Energy is through the roof, mental focus is at peak performance, attitude is shifting back to what it was 5 years ago. I feel great. I just wish I had paid enough attention to see the mental blocks when they slid into place.
I suppose this is an update of sorts. I suppose this is to let you all know that I am doing well. I suppose this is to apologize to all of you that lost me along the way. I suppose this is for me to admit that I was an idiot at times, even if I was impaired. When time allows, I would like to see my friends again. You know, the ones that I traveled with for a time. Ones that were just as damaged as I was, but found healing before I did. Yeah, you know who you are. Maybe I did get to change with you, but I was just a different kind of butterfly.
~blue