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[dreamsofbluesky]

My mum's in hospital.  I put her there.  I'm so fucking scared.  We had another fight yesterday - it began with just another argument - then she threw a book at my head and lunged for me.  I fought back.  My dad and brother couldn't stop us because we were just screaming our hearts out and kicking and punching and literally clawing at each other.

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[tao_empress]

Wow, that was intense...

Accidents happen, it's no one's fault. You had no intention of hurting your mother when it happened so it can't be your fault. I'm sure everything will be alright. Her staying overnight is probably just a precaution while they do some observation. I've been scratched in the eye before, slept with a fingernail lodged in my socket even, and it takes a while for things to get clear again. I'm sure there's nothing to worry about. -hugs and kisses on the forehead-

[dreamsofbluesky]

....Really? Your eye survived all that?

Thank you >< *hugs back*

[tao_empress]

Yeah, I survived sleeping an entire night with a nail lodged in my eye socket. Amazing, no? It didn't really hurt either, just kind of...felt weird.

And I used to get into a lot of fights with my brother [cuz that's generally what siblings do: fight like cats and dogs]. He's jammed his thumb into my eye I don't know how many times among other things and everything seems to be fine with my sight now. In fact I'm the only one in my family who doesn't need to wear glasses. :P

You're welcome, lovie! -snuggles-

[byakugan13]

*gives a major gai-sensei hug* >_<
it'll be ok. your parents will realize that you didn't mean to hurt her like that--you were just acting in self-defense. like tao_empress says, it's probably just a precaution! ^_^

[chamomile7]

*gives hug* Wow. I'm sure you didn't mean to do that. Your parents will probably realize it, too.

For consideration once things have calmed down: Have you and your family (your mom, especially) ever considered counseling? As tao_empress said, that fight sounded pretty intense, and it seems like you both have rather volatile temperaments. Anger management counseling could do you both some good. *Isn't sure whether they have that sort of thing in China or not, but will assume so.*

It's obvious that you love your mom. If you didn't you wouldn't be so worried about her.

By the way, I read your Captain Neji fic at ff.net, and it is awesome. Please keep writing it! Also, I'm friending you.

[dreamsofbluesky]

Yes, I've thought about counselling, but I've never liked the idea. Someone sticking their nose into your busines.....ick.

It's alright now, though - thanks for the concern. ^__^

I'm glad you like my fic! Sometimes its the only thing that keeps me from screaming, I swear - it's so silly I feel happier everytime I write another chapter.

*friends back*

[cureless]

You really need to get help for your family. It's hard to talk about what happens in the home out of the home, but this really can't go on. It was an accident that landed your mom in the hospital; you fought back in self-defense. Don't let her guilt trip you into feeling bad.

I know there are good times, but don't let that deter you - if things get this bad, you need an intervention, period. It is not right for a mother to beat her child in any way. It is not right for your family to gang-beat you.

Please get yourself some help and some counseling. Please.

[dreamsofbluesky]

I know I really should get help, but...I don't know, I guess I'm just too proud - I hate the idea of asking for help. I'd rant about my problems and complain until my friends have to wear earplugs, but I won't ask for help. Plus, I figure that I only have on year left with my family, so I might as well stick it out.

There's another thing, actually - my parents once made me get a psychiatric checkover, and I hated it. It made me feel like a frikking mental patient....which I guess is making me so averse to seeking professional counselling now.

Thanks again for the concern -_-" I realize I'm always ranting about the same problems, so it's awesome of you to bother reading.

[indierock4ever]

Everything will be okay.

It happens. You can't blame yourself for things like that.
You never know, maybe this will settle things between you and your mom a little. I think sometimes accidents like that happen to people so they can take some time to think and reconsider what they did. It helps. But your mom will be all right, so don't be scared or beat yourself up over it.

[dreamsofbluesky]

Actually, it hasn't settled things between us at all -_-" She's back now, worse than ever. We don't talk at all. OH WELL. It's time I moved on.

Anyway, thank you. Reading your comment really made me feel better. =]