☁ fifteenth dream :: off the network // voice post
[ off the network // just a few thoughts ]
A lot of stuff has happened lately.
By now, I was supposed to confront Mathias at the Tower of Dawn with everyone. Instead, I ended up here in the City alone for some reason. I still don't know why I'm here, but I can't say I really regret staying here. I've met a lot of kind people.
But that's not what I wanted to write about.
You see, since it was really my fault the wall of the apartment we were staying in got destroyed, I gave up my memories of Asras as part of our payment for a new house. I could still use my powers as Asras' reincarnation, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't remember Asras himself. Now I remember everything.
Back when I still didn't have those memories, something happened to Yuri. At the same time, Emil and I had switched bodies. Due to my foolishness, I got killed...or at least that's what I thought. I know I mentioned this to Leon fairly soon afterward, but that death felt odd. However, I couldn't explain why, and I had to put that thought aside to concentrate on more important matters.
I should have wrote this down much earlier, back when I first got my memory of Asras back, but a lot of things have happened since then too, so I only remembered to note this down now. The reason I thought Emil's death was odd was because of my memory of Asras' own demise. I saw it through his eyes and...well, I can't really explain it, but it felt different. Emil's supposed to be dead in the City now, right? It didn't feel like he died back then though...
I think it might have something to do with his status as Knight of Ratatosk, but Tenebrae's explanation of it...felt off. Why would the City interfere with someone's death like that? And plus, why turn him into something like a Centurion Core? Emil told me once that Tenebrae's a Centurion, but he didn't say he was one...hmm...
...I guess I can't really think of why until I know more. Times like this make me wish everyone was here too. Ange and Ricardo would probably understand this better than I could, and Hermana might remember something similar to this. And Iria and Spada are good at thinking up ideas that could actually work.
Hopefully everyone's okay, and time isn't really passing by there. I'd have to explain a lot otherwise.
[ /end ]
Uwaah, I just had a weird dream that Ricardo and that officer teamed up... I didn't think it would be that scary, but it was. I can still hear the yelling. Somehow.
Officers tend to be pretty mean to new recruits, huh... [ a light sob can be heard ]
A lot of stuff has happened lately.
By now, I was supposed to confront Mathias at the Tower of Dawn with everyone. Instead, I ended up here in the City alone for some reason. I still don't know why I'm here, but I can't say I really regret staying here. I've met a lot of kind people.
But that's not what I wanted to write about.
You see, since it was really my fault the wall of the apartment we were staying in got destroyed, I gave up my memories of Asras as part of our payment for a new house. I could still use my powers as Asras' reincarnation, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't remember Asras himself. Now I remember everything.
Back when I still didn't have those memories, something happened to Yuri. At the same time, Emil and I had switched bodies. Due to my foolishness, I got killed...or at least that's what I thought. I know I mentioned this to Leon fairly soon afterward, but that death felt odd. However, I couldn't explain why, and I had to put that thought aside to concentrate on more important matters.
I should have wrote this down much earlier, back when I first got my memory of Asras back, but a lot of things have happened since then too, so I only remembered to note this down now. The reason I thought Emil's death was odd was because of my memory of Asras' own demise. I saw it through his eyes and...well, I can't really explain it, but it felt different. Emil's supposed to be dead in the City now, right? It didn't feel like he died back then though...
I think it might have something to do with his status as Knight of Ratatosk, but Tenebrae's explanation of it...felt off. Why would the City interfere with someone's death like that? And plus, why turn him into something like a Centurion Core? Emil told me once that Tenebrae's a Centurion, but he didn't say he was one...hmm...
...I guess I can't really think of why until I know more. Times like this make me wish everyone was here too. Ange and Ricardo would probably understand this better than I could, and Hermana might remember something similar to this. And Iria and Spada are good at thinking up ideas that could actually work.
Hopefully everyone's okay, and time isn't really passing by there. I'd have to explain a lot otherwise.
[ /end ]
Uwaah, I just had a weird dream that Ricardo and that officer teamed up... I didn't think it would be that scary, but it was. I can still hear the yelling. Somehow.
Officers tend to be pretty mean to new recruits, huh... [ a light sob can be heard ]