[ ic ; the person you miss the most ]
Dear Jessica,
{...} I {...}
Dear Jessica,
Getting to see you last month was probably one of the greatest things to happen to me in these past couple of years {...} and at the same time, it's also probably one of the hardest. I miss you. So much. More than I can even dream of explaining. And the guilt, {...God...} sometimes it feels like I'm drowning in it.
I love you, Jess, so much, even now after all this time. You just so {...} beautiful and brilliant and just {...} perfect, even with all your imperfections and flaws. And if things hadn't happened the way they did, {...} I really would have married you. I would have happily spent the rest of my life with you.
{...} But I will never get the chance, and I can't spend the rest of my life holding on to a memory, especially now that the rest of my life isn't really that long. I'm not letting of or you or forgetting you and I will always, always love you, but {...} I'm moving on. I'm {...} finally letting someone else into my life the way I did with you, this time without all the lies and secrets and leaving her in the dark. I'm doing it right this time, so that even if I don't have much time left, {...} that time is well spent with someone that I love.
I love you, Jess. I miss you every day. And you will always be the one that got away. But I can't stay tethered to the past forever.
Yours truly,
Sam Winchester
{...} I {...}
Dear Jessica,
Getting to see you last month was probably one of the greatest things to happen to me in these past couple of years {...} and at the same time, it's also probably one of the hardest. I miss you. So much. More than I can even dream of explaining. And the guilt, {...God...} sometimes it feels like I'm drowning in it.
I love you, Jess, so much, even now after all this time. You just so {...} beautiful and brilliant and just {...} perfect, even with all your imperfections and flaws. And if things hadn't happened the way they did, {...} I really would have married you. I would have happily spent the rest of my life with you.
{...} But I will never get the chance, and I can't spend the rest of my life holding on to a memory, especially now that the rest of my life isn't really that long. I'm not letting of or you or forgetting you and I will always, always love you, but {...} I'm moving on. I'm {...} finally letting someone else into my life the way I did with you, this time without all the lies and secrets and leaving her in the dark. I'm doing it right this time, so that even if I don't have much time left, {...} that time is well spent with someone that I love.
I love you, Jess. I miss you every day. And you will always be the one that got away. But I can't stay tethered to the past forever.
Yours truly,
Sam Winchester