I AM AN ASSHOLE

[dregg13]

I have royally fucked up. I have most likely lost the one person I have truely loved. I lied to her. I left a comment on someones LJ, and asked them to add me. The comment WAS meant in a joking way just basically in reply to something they has written, and I just wanted to see what kinda stuff they had in their LJ Friends only part. Meg asked me

Comments

[rockmunkee]

i think maybe once something is brought up you're automatic defenses go up and you're scared.. not you and in YOU, but you as in people in general. the 1st thing to do when scared you will hurt someone is to lie to make things sound so much better. but, in the long run it never turns out that way. it always turns out bad. which leads you to have to learn from these mistakes. and i knowyou didnt mean to do that, from everything I have heard about you and you loving her so much, i could never see you deliberately lying to hurt her.

i know that once someone lies it kinda makes you think well was this true? was everything else true? that can be a hard thing to get back.. trust is a major issue. MAJOR. once broke it is hard to mend. she has every right to be hurt and questioning everything now. but, if she truely believes in you, and truely believes in the 2 of you, maybe she will think things over.

just remember, you can forgive, but you cant forget.