definately not okay right now

Well since I'm out of school and taking a semester off to figure out where I'm going next I am off of my dad's health insurance, which means I have to pay for shit that I cant offord. This pills that I take used to cost $8 now they cost $30, theropy sessions, instead of $25 are now $100 and who the fuck knows what my $40 meds are gonna cost! How am ( Read more... )

long time. Not too much going on, mostly just confusion. My distractiom from alex has failed me and now I dont know what's going on. I pretty much have no life I guess, and at times I'm not okay with that. I want some one to cuddle with and kiss....but only certain people in mind. Maybe I'm too picky, oh well
okay thats all cause I'm boring
bye bye

Well another sleepless night. I worked from 3-11 yesterday and now have to do it again today. I'm stressed and tired and very depressed. He's getting married.

Simmer down, my head is too hot so ( Read more... )

So yeah, week hasnt been all too much better though there were some okay things about it ( Read more... )

I hate life so much. There's something wrong with me. I've been going to theropy for like 5 years and yet I'm back to where I was. I told everyone that I didnt wanna take anti-depressants because I didnt want to depend on a pill to make me happy, so what do you think happened ( Read more... )

Okay so this s why i dont like summer class. I'm sitting here doing NOTHING, i mean i'm writing in my journal for God sakes. People are still working and i'm done so i gotta sit here for an hour waiting for them so that we can do our fucking critics,WASTE OF MY TIME. okay thats all.

my family is falling apart, to make a long story short, no one in my family is talking to eachother and I've been home alone for a while now with no one checking up on me. All I want is a hug and some one to tell me that it's okay, and no one seems to be doing that. I cant stop crying. All I've been doing all night is crying and throwing up. I want ( Read more... )

Today sucked. I'm not gonna go into the reasons, but it just did....a lot. So i sit here sippin on a beer thinkin' why do I think so much. Who cares if I dont have a boyfriend, who cares if work is taking over my social life, who cares about anything? I liked being a little kid and not thinking so much, so fuck it. I like who i like no matter if ( Read more... )