Sometimes I write in the moment.

[drew_barrymore]

I haven't been expressing myself well. Maybe that's because I haven't been sleeping much at all. I just lay in bed at night and think; even when I distract myself in other way, or with positive thoughts I always drift back to more stressful things

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[ex_paquin120]

I think I can relate to you more than I wish to say. You can spend so and so many nights wondering about someone, breaking your heart repeatedly until you physically ache from the pain inside.

My problem is I'm in love with one of my best friends and it is the most painful thing I've ever had to go through. I haven't admitted that to anyone, even myself so I guess you could call this a breakthrough. But I can't find the words to express to him, or myself, how I actually feel.

I'm sorry that you're going through this, just remember, you're not alone.

[drew_barrymore]

I'd say that is definitely a break through. Sometimes admitting things to ourselves is the hardest part. From there we can figure out the rest.

Falling for friends is always tricky, because you worry that exposing your feelings will change the connection and then you worry that if you moved forward and altered the existing relationship that you could never go back if things didn't work out.

Sometimes love can make you ache either way, with someone or without them.

Thank you, and I hope you know if you ever need anyone to talk to I'd gladly be there.

[k_richardson]

When I spoke about my tendency to feel more comfortable sharing my body than my emotions I was really thinking of a few isolated instances, and not my over all sexual history. Contrary to how it may seem or what I may have said/implied I don't make it a habit to jump into bed with people I don't have a relationship with. I don't really know why I feel the need to state this again; other than the fact that I feel I'm representing myself inaccurately.I used to sleep around a lot, with people whose names I didn't know or wouldn't remember once they left. So I've certainly been capable of sharing myself minus any but the most primal emotions

[drew_barrymore]

I haven't slept with a person whose name I didn't know or didn't remember the day after in years and years. It seems that when I do it now it's with people I have a vague sort of friendship with.

I think for several years I lost the ability to do that anymore. I just wanted the type of physical expression that came with a committed relationship. I think being hurt a couple of times, and falling in love and not having it work out... made sex without emotion seem appealing again.

I think so often wanting something, and working to keep it just isn't enough. So many things have to be balanced, and equal on each side.

I totally believe that. I think I have to, otherwise I couldn't get out of bed in the morning.

[ex_marla_sok284]

I think everyone tries to put up this facade of strength. Then the time comes when someone makes you put your guard down and you can feel at ease. Doesn't necessarily have to be a lover or anything. I hope I'm one of those people because you know if you were to ever fall, I'd help you up.

[drew_barrymore]

*muah* Thank you, I'm glad to know that I can count on you to be there. I'm glad you are back, I've missed you.