Merry Bipolar Christmas

[drewandian]

For years my mother has been convinced that I am, in fact, bipolar. While I do struggle with depression from time to time (usually in conjunction with hormone changes - possibly PMDD), I'm pretty sure she's wrong

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[southernred2]

It sounds like you have it figured out, but it wouldn't hurt to get tested. I had a friend who was bipolar and you don't come across anything like her. I say "had" because they tend to turn against you at some point.

As for the boys and Christmas, just enjoy every minute. Some day before you know it you'll be like us and having to share him with his wife's family. As a result, Mr. SR and I will be alone this year. Our choice. We were invited, but between the long drive and being a guest at somebody else's Christmas, we opted to stay home, watch Christmas movies in our jammies and eat spray cheese from the can. Well, maybe not that last part.

[drewandian]

I've thought about talking to the doctor about possible PMDD but at the moment the only treatment for it is birth control, which is not an option (family history of breast cancer makes it not worth the risk to add unnecessary hormones to my system) I've found some remedies that have been working for me; it's been better since I've shifted the focus of my life off of me and everything I can't control and given that all up to God.

As for Christmas, I'm soaking in everything good about the season and actually did put "#1 Mommy" on my stocking like the boys said I should (totally not my thing normally but I can't argue with them lol). The trick is going to be not letting my thoughts and emotions get the best of me when they're NOT with me.

In the meantime, we're making our own traditions and new memories and I'm doing ok. You and Mr. SR will get to do the same, which isn't a bad thing at all. *hugs* (your plans for Christmas sound like what I did for Thanksgiving lol)

[wanderingsmith]

Merry christmas to you, too. And a particular one to Andrew, may he keep that wisdom.

As for having meltdowns.. based on work, i'd say everyone, not just me, has those days. Where the simplest things.. are entirely in the shadows unless someone with a gentle clear voice finds just the right words to clear them. And even without the voice, just a few hours later, or the next day, the shadow lifts and you scratch your head at yourself.

And being emotional.. just reading this post brought non-metaphorical tears to my eyes.. so.. just part of life, i vote.

[drewandian]

I have always gotten so caught up on being "perfect" - the perfect mom who makes the perfect holidays and does everything *just right*. This past year I've worked so hard to let go of that need to be perfect and have control on everything - that's the whole point of everything I've done re: my faith journey. I forget sometimes that it's not about being perfect but simply doing and being. I'm so grateful for my children for being able to see the bigger picture and keeping me grounded. It was especially moving that Andrew was the one who was so wise, since we've had a rocky couple of years and are only now getting back to where we used to be.

My meltdowns have been few and far between lately, which is good . . . I need to remember to let them happen when/if they do, though. They're cathartic...

*hugs* sorry for the tears :/ (but glad I'm not emotional all on my own lol)

[wanderingsmith]

glad I'm not emotional all on my own
just so :)

They're cathartic
eh. true.