There's no time like the present to look back to the past and ahead to the future

[drewandian]

I came home from work tonight and actually cooked dinner for myself. Then I decided to go for a walk...and while I was walking and jamming out to Colton Dixon my mind started to wander. I walked down to the river and sat and listened to "Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)" by Hillsong and thought about where I've been, where I am and where I'm headed (

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[sangate]

You made me cry with this hun! Because, as different as our life situations/paths might be, I really feel what you wrote. I'm also majorly struggling with myself after my best friends stopped contact one day after the next and my selfasteem suffered so much. But the last year I've learnt so much about myself, mostly from my best friend who I've become really close with over the last year. She's make me see that I am worth something, despite what I've been thinking the last ten years. It's still a long, looooong road, but at least I'm making progress and I'm so glad to hear after all the incredibly tough stuff you've been through, you are also doing better. Really inspirational :) *hugs*

[drewandian]

*big squishy hugs* I'm sorry I made you cry! And I'm proud of you for changing how you see yourself. It is a long, hard road, but it's such a good thing. And powerful, realizing you don't have to continue to be defined by your old perceptions and ideals. I spent a lot of years defining myself by the relationships in my life and I'm finally breaking that cycle. It's refreshing and exciting! We totally got this!!!! <3

[abracah]

It is so hard to change our belief in our self. It is who we are and how we function. To change all that and become who we want to be takes courage and determination. Watching you, be it from afar, going through all this has been a lesson in "I can do it"-ness. You go girl. You have the support of many and the belief of the one who counts....YOU!

[drewandian]

First I want to thank you for being my cheerleader and being there for me through all of this. I am so grateful for the support system I have, both online and here at home. i really couldn't have done any of this if it weren't for my support system.

I have been determined from the beginning to come out of this all stronger and better equipped to help my boys. There was no way i was going to let J or his gf get the better of me (I'm way too competitive for that!)! The bonus to that is that I've grown so much and have a totally new perspective and focus in my life.

When I was out walking that night, I walked past the church I used to go to(the one I grew up in) - they have chalk boards outside where people can write prayer requests and I was very tempted to stop and write "Thank you for all the struggles, for they've taught me not to take the good for granted". that's exactly where my head and heart are. My life is far from perfect, but it's good and I'm happy with good.

[abracah]

You are Welcome. I am always here for you.

You should have written on the board. It might have given someone else the strength to deal with their struggles.